Question Mark - Lonely/Loser Lyrics

I don't know why I feel so lonely
A loser like me should be used to this
Maybe it's because even I don't know me
So I ain't got plans but feel like shit
But I still love myself from time to time
When I'm separating myself from those who sing for me and sympathize
I'm using all these songs to hide tonight
While I'm serenading the sunrise with symphonies I synthesize
Every night the moon returns, I think of reasons why
I'm scared to try, I'm scared to hurt, I'm scared of leaving life behind
But you don't need to worry about me, you can live for sure without me
I guess I'm not lonely, I am just alone and it's my own fault why I feel lost at home
'Cos I lack social skills and I'm captivated by oval pills for sleeping
But I don't wanna take 'em cos I'm too busy adding tonal shrills to beats and
I'm prone to overthink and overkill while overdriving all the sounds in my
Songs and I could over-feel emotions 'til I'm weeping
I'm the loser who'd never do better than anyone else so last place
And life is switching up fast paced and I'm doing worse than what my past faced
At ayoko na talaga, just translate 'cos I'm too lazy
Oh, in my fan base, my biggest fan is my room's AC
'Cos I had the audacity to make music and use it to cope
It's the only thing I'm good at, am I good at what I'm good at? well no
And I'm staring at the moon as I go 'cos there's paint splattered with the same pattern
As her name scattered in my grey matter
So why can't I forget about Minerva? It's like I know that I lack one whole of a half
Yea, it hurts I've been noticing that has been holding me back, my soul has collapsed
And maybe I'm just making as much noise
As I can in these songs so that somebody hears me
But nobody really does and I'm still waiting, still fading, celebrating my birthday yearly
'Cos I still love myself from time to time
When I'm separating myself from those who sing for me and sympathize
I'm using all these songs to hide tonight
While I'm serenading the sunrise with symphonies I synthesize
Every night the moon returns, I think of reasons why
I'm scared to try, I'm scared to hurt, I'm scared of leaving life behind
But you don't need to worry about me, you can live for sure without me
I guess I'm not lonely, I am just alone and it's my own fault why I feel lost at home