Quis - Troubled Soul (feat. Arkh Zeus) [Bonus Track] Lyrics

Man i really wanna change, but i can't
I keep on losing focus and I make the same mistakes
And I be over-stressing not a buck up on my plate
Like whats it gonna take for me to make it to the bank?
Like I dont know, and i dont think I ever will
All this f*ckin sinning can i make it into heaven still?
I been blowing dope to ease the pain but I'll never heal
Will I ever be enough for niggas? Shit I never will
I been tryna prove em wrong, but I always prove em right
They say Quis ain't good enough to be successful, live the life
Ive got so much demons i can't hold them i can't find the light
Flooded in depression I might f*ck around and die tonight
Im not suicidal im just being realistic
I been sippin somethin purple, smoking dope until im lifted
I been doing so much wrong, no guidance no religion
Im the only one to blame for the problems that have risen

And everything's moving slowly
Ain't got nobody I'm by my lonely
God, please dont abandon this Troubled Soul
God, Please Dont Abandon This Troubled Soul (Ahahah)

Man I Can't
Man I Won't
Ever Change
Never Hope
Man I Can't
Man I Dont
Wanna Smoke
But It Copes
With The Demons And The Ghosts
All The Lies False Hopes
It'll Help Me Run Away
That's The Power Of the Dope
I been feeling incomplete, stressing heavy losing sleep
Thinking what i gotta do to make my mother proud of me
And my father hasn't really been around to ever see
How much that I've been regressing, still the man he'll never be
What happened to my confidence? I Used to have so much of it
What happened to my happiness? Was sad and now im stuck with it
Music was my remedy i spit some bars they f*ck with it
But now its not enough of them I used to be so clutch with it
I guess i wanna see so many proud of me
That I'll put my pride aside but niggas still will doubt on me
I bet that yall never ever f*cking heard this side of me
By the next one i bet that yall never hear this side of Quis

And If you do then I'll be down to hell
Oh wait, already there
Whenever i'm by myself
Well that would explain why I have been ignored
Trapped inside this void I already have been destroyed
Internally all for eternity
Ain't no reworking me im damaged beyond surgery
God never purges thee
Otherwise id be perfectly
Living, guess that explains that I ain't worth it g
I know that shit ain't rocket science
But I been treating it like it is so im crying
On the inside and outside know im tired
Of trying I can scribe that I'm better off dying
Can't nobody tell me otherwise
Its all lies claiming that they words from the wise
Something that I can't condone
Everybody loves Zeusy but Ricardo's still alone, oh