Rachel Sumner - Bred in the Bone Lyrics

Am I further from you now?
It's the furthest I have felt
I've been laying by your side for hours
Wishing I were somewhere else

It's a certain kind of sinking
A heart can learn to fear
Begs the question and thinking
"How the hell did I get here?"

And how I thought I learned a little temperance
And to let a memory be
But, Familiarity's a Temptress
And once again the fool is me

Am I closer to it now?
It's the closest I have been
I'd say it, but the words are sour
And my skin it feels so thin

I will certainly be leaving
I will catch the day's first train
I will not be caught believing
Last year's bitter love remains

If nothing's changed
And nothing's been mended
Well, it's not for lack of trying
(I know) We'll only start back where we ended

I wish this was some simple fracture
A clean break that doesn't show
Do I even know what I am after?
Or is it all bred in the bone?