Rain on Fridays - Soma Lyrics

I don't like to mess around
But I don't like to stick around
But I fear of always being alone
But I hate all my friends and foes
But when I used to mess around
I only did it because my self-esteem was low
And I only did it because my mind and lust was low
And I craved meaning more then you'll ever know
And now that I got it I wanna throw it out and let it go

Where did all of this come from?
I thought I knew myself I guess that I was wrong
I'm indecisive and I'm very unwise
I remember gripping on a hand right before the show was over

I'm really not that pretty
My insides are probably bleeding
My teeth must be rotting
I see things that are quite alarming
But you're still on the phone
As I pace back and forth on the tile floor
That I sit on too much
'Cause I just give way to many f*cks

I don't know how you do it
What is it about you that makes me wanna
Run away and dive deep into a pool of salt and irrational fears
My heart rate will make me sink down to the bottom once again
Oh my friend
How do you do this?
Why do you do this?
You know I can't swim
No one ever taught me how to swim

I'm really not that pretty
My insides are probably bleeding
My teeth must be rotting
I see things that are quite alarming
But you're still on the phone
As I pace back and forth on the tile floor
That I sit on too much
'Cause I just give way to many f*cks

But now things have changed
And you're out there being great
While I'm stuck in a garage
With broken amps and fiends and art
And I climbed from too high and I fell from too far
I called myself a hundred times to make sure I got the memo
That I'm not that special
And I'm not as nice as I seem
But that's just crazy
I'm so lazy

I'm really not that pretty
My insides are probably bleeding
My teeth must be rotting
I see things that are quite alarming
But you're still on the phone
As I pace back and forth on the tile floor
That I sit on too much
'Cause I just give way to many f*cks