K10 Video (MV)

In a race against the clock
But I always come second to the minute
Because I know I'm never really living in it
I could check my best times on the screen when I'm finished
But in the end I know it's just the beginning
Power napping on the side of this highway
As B-doubles pass I shake and vibrate
To be frank there is no my way
As I'm staring at the shadow in the mirror hear my mind state
Here I am again, no pad or pen or friends I'm self dependent
Here I am again, trust me
It's just me, the one you'll never trust or believe
Here I am again, give me another fake smile to trial the pain stays
Like dry toothpaste in the basin
Fingerprint stains in the frame, well here I am again
Reflection, yeah it's staring back
Perfection, I ain't scared of that
I don't fear what does not exist
I fear the thoughts of fear and what is transferred to the abyss
I list, everything I think about this face
That dark skin, the pores, the culture ignored
The whitewashed brain matter that has lost its cause
And that shadow, should probably shave it off
Turn around and see my past on a pedestal
Look back to the future through a glass that is never full
Visions of these parklands play on loop in a faded hue
So when I say to you I'm doing not bad I'm afraid so I shade the truth
Thinking maybe I'm okay then, but it's fading
As I'm filling in this K10, yeah I'm shading
Flicking through these pages, feeling so vagrant
Smell her fragrance, those statements
She said I'm hoping that we stay friends
I'm not saying that I think about constantly, but I'd be lying
If I said I'd never took the wrong route past your house subconsciously
The monster in me that wants to leave
Gloves up to my mind when I contravene
Always wanting to pencil in, time with friends
But when I'm with them all I think of is the crash when the moment ends
And I'm still trying to walk in your shoes
On this path that you've made for me
But my soul is wearing
Bathe in this pool of anxiety, as I wade through these familiar shades
I feel a strange sense of comfort and warmth in this self constructed hell
I hear a bell and I look up
But I don't see the stars
I only see the bar and how far it is from me
My fickle mind flickers like it's powered by AC, a stone cold numbness
This feeling it sends blithering chills
Like I'm wearing 3, 4, 5 layers but I'm shivering still
Shut your mouth you don't know what real struggle's about
Take those damn shades off and face the reality
You ain't ever lost someone close you love
You've only known privilege now you think you know what's tough
Always been fed, clothed and homed
Just got your own f*cking fake problems to post up
To be clear, this is exactly what fear does
Thinking maybe I'm okay then, but it's fading
As I'm filling in this K10, yeah I'm shading
See those shadows coming near us, yeah this is what fear does
Thinking maybe I'm okay then, but it's fading
As I'm filling in this K10, yeah I'm shading
See those shadows coming near us, yeah this is what fear does
Yeah this is what fear does