Rawwz - Mama Lyrics

Now it's crazy mama. Living with the guilt, it hits me harder
Now it's crazy mama. Living with the guilt, it hits me harder
I'm struggling to breathe. Feel like it's my karma
I can't believe you died. Why you not alive

And lost you by my side. Wish I was there before not after
How much can I cry? Now this pain I can't hide
It's gonna take more than some zoots and a lager
To put this shit aside. I feel I'm left behind
So many questions that I wanted to ask ya

Can't stop thinking. My thoughts are too deep
What has happened the past few months are quite peak
I'm sick to my stomach. Now it's made me feel weak

Like no motivation. Now I'm struggling to sleep
Like when I close my eyes. It's you that I can see
It's you and my baby just staring back at me
They're so disappointed in the person I have been

For not staying strong for my family
Like I'm so stressed. What's next
So vexed. It's putting my life to a test
What's best? To rest this chest

This is as hard as it gets. Mum's dead. In bed
Dad said. Now this is f*cking with my head
I'm left but not blessed. Instead
Now all I see is red

How I wish I could turn this shit back
And take it back to the day you met my dad
Now to make sure that it never went bad
Then you'd still be alive. And I know that's fact

Would've stayed clean. Would've touched no crap
Like why poison your body with all of that
Was it worth losing life over a bag
And how I wish I could turn this shit back

Now this isn't really what I'm going through
Lost my daughter. And now I lost my mum too
So soon. It's true. Why you
Stars in the sky. Mum is my moon

Can't believe it was to see your body
In that coffin. So cold is when it got me
Had to say goodbye. Now I had to do it properly
I wasn't gonna see her cause Martina tried to stop me

Now it's crazy mama. Living with the guilt hits me harder
I'm struggling to breathe. Feel like it's my karma
I can't believe you died. Why you not alive
Lost you by my side. Wish I was there before not after

How much can I cry? Now this pain I can't hide
It's gonna take more than some zootz and a lager
To put this shit aside. I feel I'm left behind
There's so many questions that I wanted to ask ya

Every night. Now I'm looking at our memories
Like I can't hear your voice again. Now it gets to me
Like my mind and heart is just ripped to the three
To see how broken I'll be from this tragedy

I can't find photos when I was a kid
When I looked everywhere. When I said I did
I can't remember this. Now it makes me feel sick
Like I don't know what to do. Feel like I'm getting kicked

Like keep thinking about the things you plan to do
Like trips out and have a little bit of food
Like it's gonna meet you. But you couldn't hold it through
Now a few more days and I would've been with you

I wake up every morning. Now I feel devastated
Got to 52
53 Never made it
So much planned but your heart just gave in
This is why I feel shit and now I can't take it

It's crazy mama. Living with the guilt. It hits me harder
I'm struggling to breathe. Feel like it's my karma
I can't believe you died. Why you not alive
I lost you by my side. Wish I'd never fallen after

How much can I cry? Now this pain I can't hide
It's gonna take more than some zootz and a lager
To put this shit aside. I feel I'm left behind
There's so many questions that I wanted to ask ya