S.I.A.D.I Video (MV)

Don't wanna be the same
As the other ones that came before me
Idol all the ones I admired my desire is to tell my own story
Hesitant to let them in I guess it's now or never
If I ever get the courage
All we ever need is the need it's the wants that swallow me in a ring of nervous
Swallowed in a ring of nervous
Shallow is as deep is
Shallow is as deep is
Maybe I should control my own anger
Say that I am a demon to my angel
The other night
I was ready to die
I was war I was rage
I was death in the eyes
Don't know who that was
Don't know who that was
Skin from my knuckles was torn like worn gloves
Revealing what I've buried I've carried it long enough
Time to put it down and draw a circle around us
I've been trapped in self disgust
But won't discuss
It happens
Self destruct
But won't give up
A master
At picking up tiniest pieces
And strategically place em to create another
Fake reason
For you to believe
Im doing just fine
Why don't you
Why don't you
Why don't you
Why don't you just fly
Open my wings and let go of the pain
Damn I must try
So I'm killing this
Part of me that won't let me escape
Man I'm killing this
Piece of me that never lets me break
Damn I'm really sick
I cannot except that as my fate
So I'm killing it
Every single record that I make
From here on
I've said enough to let y'all see my hate
Well he's gone
I swear to me
I'll never be the same
I'll be strong
Enough to stare the devil in the face
Like reborn
To cherish every second of the day
I'll keep going
And finally get my head out of this cage
I've leaned on
For too long
Nothing I can say but
But hold on
If I can do it you got not excuses
I'm smart enough to know that I ain't mutha f*ckin
Stupid!!
Don't wanna be the same
As the other ones that came before me
Idol all the ones I admired my desire was to tell my own story
Hesitant to let them in I guess it's now or never
If I ever get the courage
All we ever need is the need it's the wants that swallow me in a ring of nervous
Swallowed in a ring of nervous
Shallow is as deep is
Shallow is as deep is
I'm strong enough to know that I don't wanna be the same
And carry pain
To the edge of all your expectations
The day I broke was the day I realized
It's no longer about me
Or better yet I realized it never was
I just knew I wasn't the same as the people I admired
And idolized
And time will reveal all lies and uncover what lies beneath the eyes and the life we excepted as our standard
This shit gets deep and I've seen things that haunt the back of eyelids I must force myself to destroy
As a boy I felt the weight of no future in front of me just a void of invalid memories and thoughts of white noise I chose my choice burned my regrets and presented it to the world
Enjoy