Rhodes Elsewhere - I'm Not Okay (feat. Shadré) Lyrics

Hey, how you doing, I'm fine, actually terrible
Can't complain, or explain, thoughts aren't really sharable
If you care, don't split hairs, it's not comparable
JK I'm okay
I'm living the dream, while I'm babysitting nightmare
Rolling with the punches when my mental doesn't fight fair
Good, when I'm bad, when I'm cool, I'm full of hot air
JK I'm okay
Now you're finally tired of all the lies
And you got folks in your life that make you want to try
To let them see underneath, the soul behind your eyes
That you're not okay
Won't say everything's gonna be alright
You've heard that phrase too many times
Won't pray for an abundant life
Just that we'll be okay

When you've run out of lines to deny that you're fine
Here's something to try

No I'm not okay
And that's okay, I'm
Not okay, but I'm gonna be
It's not the end of days
When things are not great
You're not saving nobody
When you're saving face

I'm not okay, I promise, my love
Romance is dead, did you call my bluff
Chemicals in my brain keep me guessing
Losing all I had was such a great blessing
I tried to be okay, but I'm not okay, what a day
Sometimes I wanna die, but who doesn't, but I made a vow
So I'll take a bow, at the end, with the victory crown
But I won't make a sound, guess I'm okay now
Not much I can do without you
God I know I can't live without you
I feel so lonely with people by my side
Deep down I wish I could just run and hide
I gotta be okay for Stella and Sora
Owen and Ollie and megs too I need more of you
When I'm not okay
I know I lied when I said that I am

I know not okay, just like Jayway
But I put my trust in you even when I'm not okay

No I'm not okay
And that's okay, I'm
Not okay, but I'm gonna be
It's not the end of days
When things are not great
You're not saving nobody
When you're saving face