Dear Father(Forgive Me) Video (MV)

Dear father forgive me, please don't judge me based on the way that I'm livin
Cuz I been doin wrong I admit I been trippin
But I'm only playin with cards I was givin
My poker shades slipping
And now my closest friends looking at me different
I'm looking around for my fam but everybody missing
Can barely trust so it's hard to even miss them
Tell em all I love em don't believe they even listening
Conversations wit a brick wall
Brick wall talking back like why you pissed off
I respond bacc Fucc up out my face
I got some memories and feelings that I can't erase
And mentally I'm in a fucced up place
Them niggas tried kill me had a fucced up face
The type of shit you deal wit comin up upstate
(Yea)
The type of shit you deal wit comin up upstate so
Dear father forgive me, please don't judge me based on the way that I'm livin
Cuz I been doin wrong I admit I been trippin
But I'm only playin with cards I was givin
My poker shades slipping
And now I see clear half these niggas is bitches
Ain't been through a thing but all these niggas be bitchin
But I been through the most it ain't no bitch my system
I'm a real nigga; guess I was build different
I walk it like I talk it and I'm living what I'm spitting
You looking at the wrong picture if you see it any different
I'm laughing through the bullshit
Can't let em see me slipping
Obviously modesty is not a option for me
And dear father forgive me
Cuz lately I been drinking and I'm always tipsy
Experienced alot of loss are they out to get me
Please father don't forget me
I pray that I can get it right and hope to see fifty
Dear father forgive me, please don't judge me based on the way that I'm livin
Cuz I been doin wrong I admit I been trippin
But I'm only playin with cards I was givin
My poker shades slipping
And now you can see all the tears that my eyes dripping
Plus all this pain from this nightmare that I'm living
All the truth behind the words I have given
I'm only asking of you one thing
Dear father forgive me