Roth$child - Fire In The Light Lyrics

I been in a zone I can't explain, doesn't mean it's a bad thing
Paper chasing, don't pick no calls I let the phone ring
Just wanna be free I see why the birds sing
Just wanna be me, vibing doing my own thing
In the zone I can't explain I really just be staying silent
Sometimes mad at the world but I'm not feeling violent
Hop on a train, a bus, or plane and I feel exasperated
But I gotta make it

Focused, stay alert, can't be sedated
The allure of success sometimes is exaggerated
But I put on my costume and I masquerade it
Prop myself in front of people who don't know the real me
Adds Churning out people pleasing thoughts to avoid looking filthy
But deep down I know that the world be tryna kill me
Seep me out of my dreams before they try and drill me
I wond er is it worth it with all the things I do
Then I think about how Mama be texting " son I'm proud of you"
Those moments keep me going cause I know it's true
I'm out here doing big things opening an avenue
For my family that came from nothing my success multiplies in meaning
We came from a long way from sleeping under leaking ceilings
But who am I truly if I am just a vessel
A confusing identity that cause me to wrestle
I gotten so far in my life cause I never settled
But I'm scared to crash one day cause my foot's on the pedal
If I get to the mountaintop will I get a medal?
Or do I gotta win a couple more times to complete a treble?
Will I be fulfilled cause I got my family out the fields?
Will I be a king if I expose us to a new thrills?
That money can buy and allow us to breathe
Am I a gateway to paradise displaying both Adam and Eve?
Existentialism got my mind in a prison
The future may be clear but I got blurry vision
I'm just a young man with heavy inquisition
I'm just a young man who tries to trust his intuition
I'm 22 and counting but mentally I transition through different stages
Like a bad transmission, my mental mileage goes through different phases
I hope to look back on this reflection and be proud of how far I came
That I went into the world and made it know my name...