Silverstein - I Am Alive In Everything I Touch Album Lyrics

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A Midwestern State Of Emergency

I am a dead man, I'm crawling into a trap.
A horizontal response, I'm laying down for you once again.
You've taking what's granted.
I've said goodbye to my friends, I've thrown myself headfirst into this. Close the curtain and strand me.
Found myself lost again, with even more excuses, and even less concern.
Bound and gagged but I enjoy it, you seduce your prisoner before you take your turn.

So lay me down in the field and put me under the trees in the tall grass, where they won't find me.
Enjoying silence and peace until the sirens they come back screaming, taking me away.
I've given all I can give so don't let me

Go back between Woodward and Cass, cracked concrete and broken glass.
This run down block with my name in lights.
Your saving grace, my final rites. 11 Miles from where I was when I conceded my head, embraced my lost control.
Innocence in a state so pure, you hear the demons calling to take back what you stole.

So lay me down in this field and put me under the trees in the tall grass where they won't find me.
Enjoying silence and peace until the sirens they come back screaming, taking me away.
I lost a piece of myself, and I forgot to slow down and just breathe and it's scaring me.
I've given all I can give so don't let me go.

I am a dead man and it's the only way it can end.
I don't know who's side I'm on anymore and there's no starting over.

So lay me down in this field and put me under the trees in the tall grass where they won't find me.
Enjoying silence and peace until the sirens they come back screaming, taking me away.
I lost a piece of myself, and I forgot to slow down and just breathe and it's scaring me.
I've given all I can give so don't let me go.

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Face Of The Earth

They take our pictures as angels and kings.
We're all pretending we're someone.
One percenters or stars to be, jewels of the Midwest.

It's always taken the best of me,
Locked it away and broke the key
To this house of stairs and misery
At the bottom displaced me.

Fake and make no hesitation.
Secretly hoping this will be the last time.
Break, despise our desperation.
Secretly wishing we fell off the face of the earth.
Off the face of the earth.

The ice is running through my veins.
I can't feel a thing.
Emotionless as I bring you down with me.
We both take advantage.

Fake and make no hesitation.
Secretly hoping this will be the last time.
Break, despise our desperation.
Secretly wishing we fell off the face of the earth.

In my dreams, brakes are failing as I'm losing all my teeth.
I can't breathe, fingers stretching out and pointing at me.
In my dreams, I'm falling even faster, dying in my sleep.

Fake and make no hesitation.
Secretly hoping this will be the last time.
Break, despise our desperation.
Secretly wishing we fell off the face of the earth.
Off the face of the earth.
Off the face of the earth.
(Make no hesitation)
We fell off the face of the earth.

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Heaven, Hell And Purgatory

I never know where I stand.
Which level I belong.
There's history here, it dies with me,
The show won't go on.
But I always find myself back.
Red to green and in between,
My reputation feeds me.
I still remember my first time with Armor in Hell,
But somehow I planned my escape to Heaven.

I know everything I've done has lead me here
But I'm not scared to go.
Lift up everything I own
And I'll climb up.

Like a fake we're the actors
Dishonouring the stage.
But we won't hide our faces.
This masquerade remains to be seen.
So if we die out before we are through,
Did we really believe?

I know everything I've done has lead me here
But I'm not scared to go.
Lift up everything I own
And I'll climb up.

As I pondered in silence, motionless in the Georgian heat
I realized nothing would ever be the same.
And at that moment I knew I could never replicate that feeling
Without destroying something I loved.

Wisdom, justice, moderation.
Slow down when you're trying to speak the words don't come clearly.
The letters spelling out, the spirits spilling out their guts.
Open the doors and show us who we are.

I know everything I've done has lead me here
But I'm not scared to go.
Lift up everything I own
And I'll climb up.

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Buried At Sea

All together we're taking pictures.
These eyes, this smile,
A look put on a thousand times.
This town of lies,
It only makes sense we're both here.
A perfect match (a perfect match),
A symbiotic relationship.
No lines in this sand,
I want to stay here until the end.

Then you said, living here's a death sentence.
In my head, I wished you only knew
What you had.

I'll take advantage of the situation, as long as I can.
Won't rely on aspirations to bring out the best of me.
(The best of me.)
Have another of our conversations, no one's listening.
We confine our confrontation by just burying the rest of it at sea.

This place, 4 walls,
No paintings hung, no love at all.
No space, no soul,
No one could ever call it home.
So bring me back (just bring me back),
Where southern pride takes over grace.
Black lungs, white beach,
Emerald coast will set me free.

When I said, I don't want to leave again.
In your head, you wished that it was true
And I was home.

I'll take advantage of the situation, as long as I can.
Won't rely on aspirations to bring out the best of me.
(The best of me.)
Have another of our conversations, no one's listening.
We confine our confrontation by just burying the rest of it at sea.
(The rest of it at sea.)

The darkest beach I've seen.
I can't remember what you look like.
All I know is distraction.
All I feel is the breeze.
This is all I need.

Then you said, living here's a death sentence.
In my head, I wished you only knew (wished you only knew)
What you had.

I'll take advantage of the situation, as long as I can.
Won't rely on aspirations to bring out the best of me.
(The best of me.)
Have another of our conversations, no one's listening.
We confine our confrontation by just burying the rest of it at sea.
(The rest of it at sea.)

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Late On 6th

I hope you understand that I tried hard
It slipped through my hands
I know we can't go back
I made mistakes, I lost track

When I called your name, you didn't hear a sound
I couldn't feel it then, but I need you now
I didn't see the rain when it came down
You didn't feel it then, I wish you'd feel it now

You struck a match and I burned so bright
When it got dark we lit up the night
It's late on 6th and I'm on fire
I can't put it out, I'm too tired

When I called your name, you didn't hear a sound
I couldn't feel it then, but I need you now
I didn't see the rain when it came down
You didn't feel it then, I wish you'd feel it now

I stopped when I reached the edge
And I yelled as loud as I can
"Don't go, don't go"
I stopped when I reached the edge
And I yelled it over again
"Don't go, don't go"
I stopped when I reached the edge
And I yelled as loud as I can
"Don't go, don't go"

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Milestone

I am alive in everything I touch.
I still survive in all the ones I've loved.
Nothing dies, it lives in what we've done.
I am alive in everything I've ever touched.

A forest fire burns, I'm headed right for it.
This California spark, it takes no prisoners.
We go from light to dark,
We're both asleep at the switch.
Pendleton goes on and on,
And I don't think I can make it.

Another milestone,
Another day is gone.
We refuse communication and just write off what we've lost.
Now I'm dead you've put me in the ground.
Don't deny your implication.
You decide the ones who breathe the ones who drown.

I am alive in everything I touch.
We're all alive in everything we've ever touched.

A picturesque night scene, but something's just not right.
Hollywood kills truth, and preys on honesty.
These snakes don't hide.
Images don't lie.
All these cheaters have no shame,
They'll leave you there to die.

Another milestone,
Another day is gone.
We refuse communication and just write off what we've lost.
Now I'm dead you've put me in the ground.
Don't deny your implication.
You decide the ones who breathe the ones who drown.

I'm by your side.
It's not your pain I judge.
I'm, I'm always by your side I sympathize but stand by what I've done.

[Spoken:]
So if you're listening to this.
You're listening to me.
I'm speaking right now.
And I'm speaking forever.
My memory lives on through you.
And through everyone who's ever known you.

I am alive! [x4]
(It's not about blood and guts.)
(And guilt and pain.)
(It's about this love we feel.)
(Which is all that matters.)
(It never dies.)
(It will last forever.)

Another milestone,
Another day is gone.
We refuse communication and just write off what we've lost.
Now I'm dead you've put me in the ground.
Don't deny your implication.
You decide the ones who breathe the ones who drown.

I'm by your side!
I'm by your side but stand by what I've done.

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The Continual Condition

A city drenching me in sin
Atop these buildings we're both sinking as we swim
In our continual condition

You found a way inside my head
And left me hanging by a thread
Gutted out, replaying every line you said, and thinking
"Why can't I just forget it and why can't I live without you?"
I wish I held my ground or I could just go back
And disappear from you

I let you in you stole a piece of me
And now I can't take it, I can't take it
I can't take it back from you again
You carved my body from the inside out
Never hesitated, hesitated
Left me on the boulevard here to bleed

Your eyes had pureness cutting through
They had me breaking my own rules
Assuring me it's okay
This is different, you know we're different
I'm such a mess I've tried and tried to unlearn your spell
Uncross the line maintain my confidence outside
But this pain it won't escape me

I let you in you stole a piece of me
And now I can't take it, I can't take it
I can't take it back from you again
You carved my body from the inside out
Never hesitated, hesitated
Left me on the boulevard here to bleed
(Here to bleed)

A city drenching me in sin
Below these buildings I'm still sinking as I swim
In my continual condition
I'm off the beaten path
Smashing every light I pass
I'm so far away, and the darkness makes me need you

I let you in you stole a piece of me
And now I can't take it, I can't take it
I can't take it back from you again
You carved my body from the inside out
Never hesitated, hesitated
Left me on the boulevard here to bleed
You left me here to bleed

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Desert Nights

I'm running back to you,
keep running back to you.

This is where I lay,
I've been drunk for seven days.
I couldn't tell the truth,
So I made up
Alibis to hide my dishonest life.

Wait, there's something I can't explain
So I'm giving in again.
All these desert nights
They keep me running back to you.

The fever takes ahold
I never thought I'd miss the cold.
This is how I know
That I'm still able
To feel my own insides,
Breathe in and think twice.

Wait, there's something I can't explain
So I'm giving in again.
All these desert nights
They keep me running back to you.

This isn't my first mistake
There are things that I can't undo.
But from this mess I'm in
I'm always running back to you.

I can't stay here buried.
I can't go on
Living with these
Alibis to hide my dishonest life.
Please forgive me,
There's no where else to hide.

Wait, there's something I can't explain
So I'm giving in again.
All these desert nights
They keep me running back to you.

Wait, there's something I can't explain
So I'm giving in again.
All these desert nights
They keep me running back to you.

This isn't my first mistake
There are things that I can't undo.
And from this mess I'm in
I'm running back to you.

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In The Dark

Tunnel your way in,
It'll spit you out.

I can hold it in it's a godsend.
A heart like an hourglass on it's end.
Does it matter if the love ever comes back?
Does it matter if the sun ever comes back up?

In the dark, in the dark,
When I close my eyes I see you somehow.
I've never felt more alone
And it brings me down.

In the dark, in the dark,
When I've left this town and nothing matters now,
I've never felt more alone
God it brings me down.

(Don't try to fight it.)
Smiling like a fool, action I feign,
lungs pushing air like a hurricane.
Can I fake it for whole train ride back?
Can I make it til the sky starts turning black?

In the dark, in the dark,
When I close my eyes I see you somehow.
I've never felt more alone
And it brings me down.

In the dark, in the dark,
When I've left this town and nothing matters now,
I've never felt more alone
God it brings me down.

I fell head first into Union Pool,
Never thought a night of joy would turn out so cruel.
Avoided tender trap never went inside,
But veins let out where avenues and streets collide.
If I'm out don't wake me,
This is the only peace I get.
And if I'm out don't wake me
Until the sun comes up again.
And as we leave we cross these bridges,
On bumpy roads that taunt me.
I know it's temporary,
It'll call me back to haunt me.

In the dark, in the dark,
When I close my eyes I see you somehow.
I've never felt more alone
God it brings me down.

In the dark, in the dark,
When I've left this town and nothing matters now,
I've never felt more alone
God it brings me down.

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Je Me Souviens

Dear Mother can you hear my footsteps?
I'm so close, I'm right there.
I'm almost home, so unprepared
To notice yet ignore
How hard it is to be around you.
I've came clean, I'm washed out.
I've flooded the engine, stranded myself.
This home, native land
They speak in words I can't understand.

So when I'm standing on this street like I have a hundred times,
You don't even glance at me you just pass me by.

I remember your face, from the moment I first saw you I never looked away.
I'll never forget how you looked that Saturday when you told me
We could never be together, and I could never change.

Mother, Mother is it you who's calling?
Lights out, lay down,
We'll sleep when we're dead, that time is now.
But soft speak will drown out
How I can't do what's right around you.
Cold breeze, no coat,
Excuses used to take words from my throat.
False hope confirmed.
Deceits a language I can't hope to learn.

So when we're standing on this street like we have a hundred times,
We will celebrate the years you stalled and couldn't decide.

I remember your face, from the moment I first saw you I never looked away.
I'll never forget how you looked that Saturday when you told me
We could never be together, and I could never change.

I used to believe that every person had a purpose
In this swirling ball of indecision that consumes us all.
I used to believe that every person had a person
They could always count on and not be scared of, one for everyone.

So when I'm standing on this street like I have a hundred times,
Can I walk away and finally leave, finally leave all of this behind?

I remember your face, from the moment I first saw you I never looked away.
I'll never forget how you looked that Saturday when you told me
We could never be together, and I could never change.

I remember your face, from the moment I first saw you I never looked away.
I'll never forget how you looked that Saturday when you told me
We could never be together, and I could never change.

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Toronto (Unabridged)

You know I have to go back to the place I hate the most.
Long ago it used to help me grow,
Always kept me feeling safe from coast to coast.

Lock the gates at night and don't set my place,
I won't be back to see how the snow covers leaves.
I counted down the hours until I found a shortcut home to you,
But I'm just passing through,
Barely a guest, a stranger in my own home.

I'm back in Toronto, but just til tomorrow,
That's when the bleeding stops again.
Put off all the feelings, forget all the meanings,
Just let it cycle through my head.
We're spinning again, the sinning is innocent,
Until we realize that we're back in Toronto once again.

You kicked and screamed until you met your defeat
And slammed the door behind me, where you stood for weeks.
I spent all night pretending I was alright,
I justified, I planned, but I know deep inside
I can't withstand temptation by your hand.

I'm back in Toronto, but just til tomorrow,
That's when the bleeding stops again.
Put off all the feelings, forget all the meanings,
Just let it cycle through my head.
We're spinning again, the sinning is innocent,
Until we realize that we're back in Toronto once again.

Back home, Liberty, cutting through the park
I see everything has changed except for me.
This place is called home but I've never been so scared
To face the cold, breathe in the truth from the air.
This place is called home, but from Kensington to Dee's,
Everything I pass it plants a seed.
And it takes me back to a time when all I had
Was a cloud over my head, weights on my feet.
This place is called home but it's not where I will stay,
It's all temporary, I know I'll never move away,
But I know this city will always feel strange,
This city is a stranger to me.