to sheila
billy
corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
twilight fades
through blistered avalon
the
sky's cruel torch
on arching autobahn
into the uncertain divine
we
scream into the last divine
you make me real
you make me real
strong as i
feel
you make me real
sheila rides on crashing nightingale
intake eyes
leave passing vapor trails
with blushing brilliance alive
because it's
time to arrive
you make me real
you make me real
strong as i
feel
you make me real
lately I just can't seem to believe
discard my
friends to change the scenery
it meant the wrold to hold a bruising
faith
but now it's just a matter of grace
a summer storm graces all of me
highway warm sing
silent poetry
I could bring you the light
and take you home into the
night
you make me real
lately I just can't seem to
believe
you make me real
discard my friends to change the
scenery
strong as i feel
it meant the world to hold a bruising
faith
you make me real
but now it's just a matter of grace
ava adore
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
it's you that I adore
you'll always be my
whore
you'll be the mother to my child
and a child to my heart
we must
never be apart
we must never be apart
lovely girl you're the beauty in my world
without
you there aren't reasons left to find
and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect
just like me
you'll be a lover in my bed
and a gun to my head
we must
never be apart
we must never be apart
in you I see dirty
in you I count stars
in you
I feel so pretty
in you I taste god
in you I feel so hungry
in you I
crash cars
we must never be apart
drinking mercury
to the mystery of all that you
should ever seek to find
lovely girl you're the murder in my
world
dressing coffins for the souls I've left behind
in time
we must
never be apar
tand you'll always be my whore
cause you're the
one that i adore
and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just
like me
in you I feel so dirty in you I crash cars
in you I feel so pretty
in you I taste god
we must never be apart
perfect
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
I know we're just like old friends
we just can't
pretend
that lovers make amends
we are reasons so unreal
we can't help
but feel that something has been lost
but please you know you're just like me
next time
I promise we'll be
perfect
perfect
perfect strangers down the
line
lovers out of time
memories unwind
so far I still know who you are
but now I wonder
who I was...
angel, you know it's not the end
we'll always be
good friends
the letters have been sent on
so please, you always were so free
you'll see, I
promise we'll be
perfect
perfect strangers when we meet
strangers on
the street
lovers while we meet
perfect
you know this has to be
we always we're
so free
we promised that we'd be
perfect
daphne descends
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
with the sugar sickness
you spy the kidnap
kid
who kids you to oblivion
it's the perfect hassle
for the perfumed
kiss
he makes you miss him more than home
you love him
you love him more than this
you
love him and you cannot, you can't resist
you love him
you love him for
yourself
you love him and no one, no one else
past sidewalk ashes a last lovers arc
you come
apart to intertwine
it was all so simple
as you watched him move
across
the darkness in your room
you love him
you love him for youself
you love
him and no one, no one else
and the winding vines
the pretty boys dive
and
thru the pinhole stars
into the shadow mind
you will lose him then
on
some gentle dawn
this boy is here and gone
you love him
you love him for yourself
you love
him and no one, no one else
you love him
you love him more than
this
you love him and you cannot, you can't resist
you love him...
once upon a time
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
Mother I'm tired
come surrender my son
time has
ravaged on my soul
no plans to leave but still I go
Fallin' with the leaves
fallin' out of sleep
to
the last goodbyes
who cares why?
Mother I've tried
wasting my life
I haven't
given up, I lie
to make you so proud in my eyes
Fallin' out of sleep
crawlin' over me
to the
last goodbyes
who cares why?
Tuesdays come and gone
restless i still
drive
try to leave it all behind
fallin', fallin' out of sleep
fallin', fallin'
with the leaves
I go crawlin', crawlin' over me
Once upon a time in my life...
I went
falling...
Mother I hope you know
that I miss you so
time
has ravaged on my soul
to wipe a mothers tears grown cold
tear
billy
corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
the lights came on fast
lost in motorcrash
gone
in a flash unreal
but you knew all along
you laugh the light
I sing the
songs
to watch you numb
I saw you there
you were on your way
you held
the rain
and for the first time
heaven seemed insane
cause heaven is to
blame
for taking you away
do you know the way that I can?
do you know the
way that I can't lose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know the
things that I can do?
where is your heart? where is your heart gone
to?
tear me apart
tear me apart from you
you laugh the light I cry the
wound
in gray afternoons
I saw you there
you were on your way
you held
the rain
and for the first time
heaven seemed insane
cause heaven is to
blame
for taking you away
the lights came to pass
dead opera
motorcrash
gone in a flash unreal
in nitrous overcast
do you know the way that I can?
do you know the
way that I can't choose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know
the things that I can't lose?
tear me apart
tear me apart from you
where is
your heart?
where has your heart run to?
crestfallen
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
who am I to need you when I'm down
where are you
when I need you around
your life is not your own
and all I ask you
is for another chance
another
way around you
to live by circumstance, once again
who am I to need you now
to ask you why to tell
you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to
me
and you may go, but I know you won't leave
too
many years built into memories
your life is not your own
who am I to need you now
to ask you why to tell
you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to
me
who am I to you?
along the way
I lost my
faith
and as you were, you'll be again
to mold like
clay, to break like dirt
to tear me up in your sympathy
you were never
meant to belong to me
you were never meant to belong to me
you were never
meant to belong to me
who am I?
appels + oranjes
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
what if the sun refused to shine?
what if the
clouds refused to rain?
what if the wind refused to blow?
what if the seas
refused to wave?
what if the world refused to turn?
what if the stars
would hesitate?
what if, what is isn't true?
what are you going to
do?
what if, what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to
lose?
digging for the feel of something new
what if the silence let you dream?
what if the air
could let you breathe?
what if the words would bring you here?
what if
this sound could bring you peace?
what if, what is isn't true?
what are you going to
do?
digging for the feel of something new
what if, what is isn't
you?
does that mean you've got to lose?
it came from your thoughts, your dreams and
visions
ripped up from your weeks and indecisions
what if the sun refused to shine?
what if the
clouds refused to rain?
what if the wrold refused to turn?
what if the
clocks would hesitate?
what if, what is isn't true?
what are you going to
do?
what if, what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to
lose?
digging for the feel of something new
does that mean you've got to choose?
the feel of
something new
does that mean you've got to lose?
the thoughts you cannot
lose
what are you gonna do?
pug
billy
corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
kiss and kill me sweetly
come and drive me
home
drag the miles in me
I am yours alone
inside where it's warm
wrap myself in
you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into
you
desire me so deeply
drain and kick me
hard
whisper secrets for me
try to go too far
inside where it's warm
wrap myself in
you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in
two
into...
please don't change
please don't change at
all
bring your rain
bring your rain to fall
inside where it's warm
wrap myself in
you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into
you
come and kiss me sweetly
ride the
telephone
drag the miles to me
I am yours alone
yours alone
on the
telephone
yours alone
looking for a kiss kiss
yours alone
the tale of dusty and pistol
pete
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis
songs (bmi)
dusty screams, through doors and imaginary
floors
"why can't you miss me?"
pistol pete removes the final breaths from
her unkind and she is shaken
what does this mean in love or in peace?
with
you lying next to me
so faithless serene
and she calls to him
let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far
out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of
you
let them cry out through your rusted scars
alone he roams inside the ordinary catacombs of her
waiting
with raven hands she steals and staggers towards her man
still
scorned by his demon
because he's undone
become the language
of
disaster and love, vengeance and dust
and she calls to him
let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far
out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of
you
let them cry out through your rusted scars
dusty screams, through doors and imaginary
scenes
of hurt and teardrop
as he holds her down, in the cold lonely
winds
together again, her inside him
and she calls to him
let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far
out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of
you
let them cry out through your rusted scars
annie-dog
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
amphetamine annie-dog
has her leash and a
face
her velvet spleen her shackle spine
her diamond curse
it comes
with mine
a vessel she
for violent I
confession arms a
wake
mine, mine you were always mine
possessed by my taste
and below the angel dog
combs her hair and sings
her psalms
the bombs go off
she doesn't notice
it all goes wrong
she
sets things tragic
she is venus
she is mars
she's electric
and the
struggle of
upon my face we leave no trace
but in her stomach
mercury aged
she holds the blood
she carves the knives
she
digs the wives in our babies
amphetamine annie-dog
pulls her trash
and her
stories
from place to place
and bed to bed
gives of herself and the
magnet head
another floor another ceiling
counting stairs with
double meanings
is it wrong to be swallowed whole
to disappear in
her
to give her the priceless peace
of giving up control
we tumble out into the streets
and annie-dog she
drags her leash
pretty face
ugly mouth
bitter bred and so
released
and by the no
and by the yes
annie goes if you
couldn't guess
a simple man
a sycophant
her elephant with the
laughing call
she wants clean sheets
and fresh flowers
and dental
shots
and the hong kong glue
amphetamine annie-dog
has her leash and a
face
shame
billy
corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk
alone
you're gonna see this through
don't let them get to you
shame
love is good and love is kind
love is drunk and
love is blind
love is good and love is mine
love is drunk all the
time
shame
you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk
alone
you're gonna walk so far
you're gonna wonder who you are
shame
love is good and love is kind
love is good and
love is blind
love is good and love is mine
love is good all the
time
hello goodbye, you know you made us cry...
behold! the night mare
billy corgan & james iha
© 1998 chrysalis
songs/cellophane star music (bmi)
I've faced the fathoms in your deep
withstood the
suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
appease
you
the wind blows and I know
I can't go on, digging roses from you grave
to
linger on, beyond the beyond
where the willows weep
and whirlpools sleep,
you'll find me
the coarse tide reflects sky
and the night mare rides on, and the night mare rides
on
with a december black psalm
and the night mare rides on
what i fear
is lost here
the wind blows and I know
all you have to do is run away
and steal yourself
from me
become a mystery to gaze into
you're so cruel in all you do
but
still I believe, I believe in you
so may you come with your own knives
you'll never
take me alive
with all the force of what is true
is there nothing I can
do?
I can't go on, digging roses from you grave
to
linger on, beyond the beyond
where the willows weep
and whirlpools sleep,
you'll find me
and the night mare rides on, and the night mare rides
on
with a december black psalma
nd the night mare rides on
I've faced the fathoms in your deep
withstood the
suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
to hold the
flower I can't keep
for martha
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
whenever I run
whenever I run to you lost
one
it's never done
just hanging on
just past has let me be
returning as if
dream
shattered as belief
if you have to go don't say goodbye
if you have to
go don't you cry
if you have to go I will get by
someday I'll follow you
and see you on the other side
but for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning
of
heaven from above
your picture out of time
left aching in my
mind
shadows kept alive
if you have to go don't say goodbye
if you have to
go don't you cry
if you have to go I will get by
I will follow you and see
you on the other side
but for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning
of
heaven from above
long horses we are born
creatures more than
torn
mourning our way home
blank page
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
blank page is all the rage
never meant to say
anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
got dressed
drove the state line
looking for you at the five and dime
stop sign told
me stay at home
told me you were not alone
blank page was all the
rage
never meant to hurt anyone
in bed I was half dead
tired of
dreaming of rest
you haven't changed
you're still the same
may you rise
as you fall
you were easy you are forgotten
you are the ways of my
mistakes
I catch the rainfall
through the leaking roof
that you had
left behind
you remind me
of that leak in my soul
the rain falls
my
friends call
leaking rain on the phone
take a day palnt some trees
may they shade you
from me
may your children play beneath
blank page was all the rage
never meant to say anything
in bed I was half
dead
tired of dreaming of rest
got dressed drove the state line
looking
for you at the five and dime
but there I was picking pieces up
you are a
ghost
of my indecision
no more little girl
17
billy
corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
17 seconds of compassion
17 seconds of peace
17 seconds to
remember love is the energy
behind witch all is created
17 seconds to
remember all that is good
17 seconds to forget all your hurt and pain
17
seconds of faith
17 seconds to trust you again
17 seconds of
radiance
17 seconds to send a prayer up
17 seconds is all that you
need