sadboiclub - lost Lyrics

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Lost in the ocean
Led by the stars
We hold them to hope
Letting go through the dark

Lost in the ocean
Led by the stars
We hold them to hope
Letting go through the dark

(Yeah)
(Check check)
(Uh, uh)
(Hahahahahaha)
I would have given f*cking everything to see this shit grow
But then I lost my own direction
Couldn't let myself go
Lost my grip on my throne
While it drove me down the drain
I can't understand this
Are you leaving?
F*ck, it's driving me insane
Take this blade to my wrist
Time to repent for the mistakes
Wipe the sink clean
Let's get ready for another day
Paint a smile upon my face
Walking through another place
Uncomfortable inside my brain
But it always feels this way
My punishment is the pain
Isolated I feel insane
Nobody knows my name
And when they see me
They feel shame
Nobody wants to help me
Until I admit I that I am lost
And everyone wants to hurt me
No matter what the cost
I feel like giving up on music
Just repeat the words you're reading
I can't f*cking break the cycle
But it's something that I'm needing
I've been crying out for help
Since 2000 f*cking 18
I'm still crying out for help
But I'm no longer a teen
I'm an adult now
Tell me I should figure this out
But every question
Just surrounds my mind with doubt
I can't figure this shit out
I can't do this shit on my own
I'm begging you to help me
I just need to find my home
I always felt f*cking lost
No matter what the cost
Everybody wants to hurt me
And go lock me in the box
I'm letting go of what you've done
Accepting that I'm lost
I'll let the world just break me down
This ledge you pushed me off
(The ledge you pushed me off)

Lost in the ocean
Led by the stars
(Uh)
We hold them to hope
Letting go through the dark
(I'm lost, I'm lost!)

Lost in the ocean
Led by the stars
We hold them to hope
Letting go through the dark
(Yeah, uh)

I would have given f*cking everything
For myself to succeed
But every time I pick myself up
I get knocked down to my knees
This world is so cruel, everybody has to plead
Just to grasp the glimpse of happiness
That's always out of reach
F*ck that shit
No I'm never looking back to the past
I hated my own face
So I would always wear this mask
Representing all my trauma and the shit I hide away
I know that I can't run forever
But I'm trying to find a way
See I've always felt f*cking hurt
I'm used to the taste of the dirt
Everybody seems to watch my world as it burns
But the lyrics always hide
All of the lessons I have learned
I'm looking towards the future
Cause this is my chance to earn

Earn a name for myself
While I'm going through this hell
All these sirens in my head
Have got me under a spell
I can't f*cking break this cycle
But there's something I'm forgetting
I can't move on with the past
When I feel myself regretting
Every action every moment every step that I will take
I've been walking through the chaos
But the storms about to break
So if I reach the golden gates
Will I be judged for my mistakes
Or will I be rewarded for the pain
I hide behind a smiling face
I think about it all too often, what will happen when I die?
I think about it all to often, will I be lonely all the time?
I'm running out of time to write but that's just what it cost
I had to write to let you know the world will not be lost
(lost, lost, lost)