Sail - Trying Lyrics

I've been trying a different path
I've been trying different math
The definition of insanity is trying the same thing
But expecting a different wrath
I've been trying not to lose my cool or lose my composure
I've been trying not to kill a mother f*cker
Just for some closure
I've been trying not to be the man I used to be
Instead I want to be the man I need to be and get them used to me
I've been trying not to let them see my weakness
On a Tuesday when I'm coming down from the weekend and the week hits
I've been trying not to let anyone down
Got pressure on my head now
That's what happens when the crown comes around
I've been trying not to let them see me cry
So I've been shedding tattoo tears for those that died until I see them on the other side
I've been trying not to be ungrateful
So if this sounds like I'm complaining please understand that I'm not hateful
I'm just trying to be faithful
I've been trying not to forget where I came from
I'm just trying to move the pain on, and remain strong
Now that the rains gone