We weren't ready. We were still children in ourselves and that's what I have to constantly remind myself when I start to dwell upon how different we'd be now. If only we were in a place where we were not so destined to separate.
Knowing that we made the only choice that we could make at the time, it didn't make it any easier to take. The guilt that's now over a decade old is the burden that I will forever hold.
Deep down I know that we did the right thing but that never stopped my mind from wondering. I could have been a father but we couldn't tell anyone because we knew what was right for us may not be seen as right by some. So we suffered alone. Yeah I bottled it in. Inside me there's a pain that's been distilled beneath my skin.
Knowing that we made the only choice that we could make at the time, it didn't make it any easier to take. The guilt that's now over a decade old is the burden that I will forever hold. I'll forever hold.
I will always know that we just weren't ready. And I will always know we're still children in ourselves. I wont let it haunt me.
It was only choice that we could really make. At the time it didn't make it easier to f*cking take.
The guilt that's now over a decade old is the burden that I will forever hold. I'll forever hold. Ill forever hold.