Yeah maybe I'm not where I should be
A person on the outside
Just looking in and knowing
Cause lately
These frets are getting dusty
Phonetic words more frequently
Addiction has a hold on me
I keep wondering when I'll fall apart next
Cause im feeling overwhelmed
Digging and not finding much
But you could never tell
Disconnected out of touch
Thought you'd show me the way
Drowning transparent and grey
Feeling like you wanted me to
But I still miss him dearly
The walks and the feelings
His love was something
I could write about
I keep wondering when I fall apart next
On the outside I'm fit and healthy
On the inside I'm not sure
I'm sick of abuse and screaming
I'm sick of it all
Wanna ditch these feeling
These cracks in these ceilings
Laughing at things I don't care about
No idea what's in my lungs
Nasal passage way stung
But I'm already slowing this shit down
I keep wondering when I fall apart next
On the outside I'm fit and healthy
On the inside I'm not sure
I'm sick of abuse and screaming
I'm sick of it all
Like scrabble pieces on a chessboard
It doesn't fit it doesn't work anyway
Sometimes it's useful when you're alone
And you're cast away