SelfMadeSilu - Mixed in My Thoughts Lyrics

Mixed in my thoughts I aint got nun say
F**** up today I jus broke up bae
Fatigue with these Ls let me boss up today
Look like I jus through some voss on my face
Paranoid I keep my gun just in case
I'm all in head ain hear what u say
I pray every night and I sin every day
My opponent be my friend every day yeah...
Woke up today and I say thank you Lord
I been going through some things that got me thinking hard
Did some things back in my pass and now im paying for it
I been tryna buy some things money can't afford, help me Lord!
Mixed in my thoughts Ain got nun to say
Fatigue With These Ls Need To Boss Up Today
I f****** around and I got caught up today
Me and my bae we jus broke up today
I pray every night but I sin every day
Tell me God why I cant win everyday
Feel like a dream wish I woke up today
Feel like a dream wish I woke up today yeah yeahhh
Hold Up!
My opponent be my friend everyday
Paranoid f*** they might cross me today
I can see that wolf teeth when he smile in my face
When they talk I think they hissing like a snake
Heart full of pain yes it ache
My face be full of rain like a lake
Mixed in my thoughts ain got nun to say
Feel like a dream wish I woke up today yeahh
Fatigue with these Ls make me feel out of shape
I feel like I'm going to slow whats the pace
I am not fit for no minimum wage
Got minimum money with maximum taste
All the answers to life but still feel deranged
I Feel like ice in global warming bout to break
My mother still think that i got what it takes
Even thou she still see the estrange in my face Yeah
Estranged... most of my love lost yea
If... love transferred to money ill be bankrupt now yeah
I... Invested my time into people that look scandalous now yeah...
Now women they looking at me cuz I jus f*** now
What I need a hunnid chains for when my fam still struggling same broke
Life is really like a big pill and my fam experiencing the same choke
I'm from the bottom like the devil
Get over these plateaus to up level yeah
Salute troop for this but no offense. I'm tryna take over like rebel yeah
Mixed in my thoughts Ain got nun to say
Fatigue With These Ls Need To Boss Up Today
I f****** around and I got caught up today
Me and my bae we jus broke up today
I pray every night but I sin every day
Tell me God why I cant win everyday
Feel like a dream wish I woke up today
Feel like a dream wish I woke up today yeah yeahhh
Hold Up!
My opponent be my friend everyday
Paranoid f*** they might cross me today
I can see that wolf teeth when he smile in my face
When they talk I think they hissing like a snake
Heart full of pain yes it ache
My face be full of rain like a lake
Mixed in my thoughts ain got nun to say
Feel like a dream wish I woke up today yeahh
All in my head depressed
The doctor keep giving me meds
Giving my love to some people that hateful put me deep in neglect
And my family still knee deep in poverty
No it aint helping my stress
And I jus Fell out with my bae acting slick tryna get me some h***
D***
My opponent in the mirror today
He down bad look like voss in his face
Gun in his hand wanna catch him a case
He told me the pain really hard to embrace
And sometimes a smile really hard to display
Bad memoirs tryna wish'em away
I told em take a deep breath boy you gotta keep faith
And don't forget you got a child on the way yeah
When I smile it be in disguise
Put that pain in back in my head don't like you seeing me cry
Never tried to seem hard, I'm not that type of guy
But I been to places where I blowed s*** up like 4th of July... yeah
My opponent be my friend everyday yeah
My opponent be my friend everyday yeahhh yeah
Hold Up... yeah yeah yeah yeah