I'm Tired Video (MV)

I spent 30 minutes in my bedroom yesterday
Just to lay 20 hours and contemplate what I would say

Cause boy does it seem so bleak when I look to my right
Outside seem so miserable so why should I try
To get up out this bed when I just wanna cry
So I lay in this bathtub holding a knife

To myself
I guess but am I depressed
Cause a rough patch seems to be all that I get
But I have a nice job and a bunch of good friends
So why do I feel upset when I leave my bed

In the morning light
Or the lack there of
Is it cause some get harassed just because where there from
Is it cause some getting stabbed for the colours they love
When we all bleed the same man it doesn't add up

I feel like the world right now is stuck in a rut
And nothing that I say or do can be undone
Maybe that's just my negativity come through
Maybe my mind is going insane from loving you

I could deal with it through drugs or something else but
A permanent solution always seems the best but
I always have an issue cause I second guess must
Be why i never had a love with someone else

So that's totally on me
I know why i'm faulty
And people say its not that bad
It's just your personality

Sunshine boy but he doesn't understand a lot
Unless its bout the numbers and how we gravitate to our

Destination in the dirt
6 feet under laying down with the worms
Turn to a flower that's food for the birds
Fly to the heavens if that's your concern

Not mine though
I just wanna lie low
Make some nice music in my room
Feel like time froze

Make me feel that I know
Living is alright so
I'll get back to writing
So for now that's goodbye y'all