sheol - ashes Lyrics

Faded and diluted is the jacket that I wore
Fated to face the music when I see an open door
Slated to be deluded from the chalices I poured
Waited to be refuted
Choosing to be a fugitive
Choosing to be accused of things
And choosing to ignore
Having nothing wanting more
But happiness is a chore
It's vapidness I adore
Lacking is what I'm for
It's emptiness in my core
How can nothing be so heavy?
Give me something, think I'm ready
Let me have it, don't forget me
Looking at it, hope I'm ready
Know I'm not, so make me ready
Heart is heavy, keep me steady
I'm balancing on a wire
I'm stalwart, but I'm a liar
I'm fated to fall in fire
The only thing I require
Is something that's very dire
I'm overwhelmed by the choir
Faded and diluted is the happiness I bore
Fated to face the fire when I see an open door
Slated to be deluded from the chalices I poured
Waited to be refuted
Choosing to be a fugitive
Choosing to be accused of things
And choosing to ignore
Having nothing wanting more
But happiness is a chore
It's vapidness I adore
Lacking is what I'm for
It's emptiness in my core
True love
Ashes falling off the cigarette
Already but not yet
Already but not yet
Already but not
Ashes falling off the burning cigarette
I'm living please don't forget
I'm living please don't forget
I live in this, I regret
To give in, this I beget
I get nothing and yet I fret
I give into zero pressure
It's heavy in ashes
Falling from the burning cigarette
He'll step on it, not yet
He'll stomp it out, not yet
He'll stomp it out