Small Talk - This Is Not The End Lyrics

Medication prescription drugs that's what it takes to fall out of love
And therapy and old TV
It will never clear my memories
And the childhood dreams and Ponzi schemes
Won't restore my crumbling self-esteem
And this out of touch unrequited love got set alight with gasoline
Pick myself up for an evening show
My heart beats faster my adrenaline flows
It's the only time I don't feel lonely
I'm down backstage and I'm getting high with the people I will idolise
It's the only way I will ever get over you
This is not the end
This is not the end
And it goes over and over and over and over again
This is not the end
This is not the end
Topping up on the empty glass
Cheap thrills blue pills and expensive fags
A flush of blood a dopamine rush
Whatever it takes to fall out of love
But I'll wake back up on a Monday morning you're missing from my bed
It's an overwhelming cathartic feeling
A killer sense of dread
This is not the end
This is not the end
And it goes over and over and over and over again
This is not the end
This is not the end
Oh my god I've overdosed
On serotonin
And I'm left choking
Oh my god self-deprecation
Annihilation devastation
Surefire signs in desperate times
Oh god I miss her
Pull the trigger
And the heartless cries and lonely seas
The bedroom floor I'm on my knees
This is not the end
This is not the end
And it goes over and over and over and over again
This is not the end
This is not the end