S.M.O.K.E. LC - Lost Lyrics

Yeah, yeah, yeah, this mind I live in it's a chasm
Looking at these cars and shit just wishing that I had them
Steady on my grind, why the f*ck should I stop
I will keep on going till I'm nowhere but the top

Every motherf*cker doubting me but they're so f*cking blind
To see the vision that I keep inside, it stays locked
I speak from my mind, I translated it to paper
Tell me why the f*ck you frauds are trying to ruin my plot

I don't conversate with fakes, they just trying to reach a false state
Trading out their morals for gain, bitch I can't relate
We don't want no handouts, we gon' make it on our own
Speaking on behalf of myself, that's what I condone

And trust me bro, I done struggled, been through hell and back
Didn't have no f*cking food, now where's my wages at
I always got them late, shit, my boss would make me wait
I gotta provide for the family in a different way

To build funds in this life you gotta miss fun
I remember we was out all night just on the run
Now where's my mama at?
I don't f*cking know
Everything was good back then about five years ago

And where's my baby gone? She ain't on her phone
And I seen that motherf*cker with her before I went home
And now I'm freaking out, how long she been lying for
Only love me if it's real or else I will ignore

Lonely nights, never leaving
Looking out for bro, making sure that he's breathing
Keep the baseball bat just for creeping
That boy deserves a beating

That little motherf*cker, trust me he will end up bleeding
Look, look, look
I often ask the dead for their advice on life
Gravestones became my only friends, yeah they were down for life

At night I'm steady screaming cos the voices in my head
They'll forever taunt me, your face will always haunt me
I cannot get this shit out my brain, now what else can be said
I always thought that by this time yeah I'd be f*cking dead

Seein' my papa cry, and watching Mia die
Talking to my bro that's deaf, numb and f*cking blind
Yeah that's all the shit that changed me
But even so when I'm feeling low

I grab the f*cking shard and cut inside
My pain can't hide, finna try suicide
I'd rather die, I'd rather f*cking die