Soba - Matter Lyrics

To my ex girl, do you even even care
I've really tried hard, I'm even pulling out my hair
I'm knocking at your door, hoping that you're even there
I just need to say this, so we can clear the air
I really tried my best, I really hoped you liked that
But after all the fights, you don't even write back
I used to bike miles to your house, even when you're sick
But always mad at me saying I'm thinking with my dick
And when you hate me I put up with your shit
I told you I won't leave cause I'm not the type to quit
I told you if you smoke that I was gonna dip
You said that you would stop, so I just forgave it
But little known fact you couldn't pick up the slack
Chill with stupid friends who didn't even give a crap
I want the best, so I just ask for simple favors
Cause I do the most and you act like I'm a player
Do I even matter
It's like I don't even matter
Do I even matter
It's like I don't even matter
To my family, do you even even care
Even care that I'm pulling out my freaking hair
Judge me every second cause the clothes I like to wear
Don't treat me like my cousins, man that ain't even fair
I think it's f*cking crazy that you cant support me
But would be super happy if I had a degree
All this f*cking bullshit for some security
All because you doubt my ability
Why you hate me, f*ck you mad at me for
Your daughter lives at home and she already past 24
In a couple years, she'll be there for plenty more
It's f*cking bullshit cause I have a better FICO score
I really wanna live, can you f*cking let me be
Tattoos on my skin and you're already judging me
What's with the assumptions when I pull up to the functions
Always pushing buttons, always topic of discussions
Do I even matter
It's like I don't even matter
Do I even matter
It's like I don't even matter
To society, do even see me
I'm tryna spread to the word using positivity
Hoping you allow me just to speak freely
Cause the music in me is something to believe
I just wanna rap about all my heart breaks
Hoping that someone out there feels the same way
I just wanna talk about how I want a wife
This is just me, and I want that type of life
People don't get me and don't understand
I don't want problems, not with a single man
I just wanna fly out to Tokyo Japan
Travel around the world, eat stir fry from a pan
So please take the time, just hear me out
Stream all my music, help my bank account
So one day I could buy my wife a f*cking house
To live the life, that only others dream about
Do I even matter
It's like I don't even matter
Do I even matter
It's like I don't even matter