My Girlfriend Left Me Video (MV)

What's wrong, well my grandmas sick
Every single day she's dying to live
Every other day she forgets her kid
I really hope god could just forgive
Just the other day she forgot my name
Everything's different nothing's the same
That's just life, who can I blame
I just want the pain to go away
Mom still stress I don't really come to help
I'm too busy just working on myself
This just adds more weight to my shelf
Starting to feel like I can't find myself
She don't really see what's going on with me
She expects me to have everything
Under control, and not have an issue
But I'm crying every night and running out of tissue
My best friend, just moved away
Barely even talk, don't communicate
He's too busy, can't chat today
Now every bad thought in my head just stays
I really need to talk, but no one's around
Sitting in my apartment alone in a town
Things are quiet not even a sound
Deep in my thoughts, started to feel like I drowned
Ever since I've been living by myself
A bunch of issues, made life a living hell
Like all these bills that I got to my neck
I truly found out what its like to live with debt
My bills are long overdue
It's hard to stay above, and that's the issue
Started asking my dad for money
His side of the family won't even support me
And I really don't like repeating myself
But I can't stress enough how much no one helps
Always around in the dire of need
But I can't get a text, an email, or a ring
And my sleep apnea is getting to me
Sometimes in my sleep I can't even breathe
Starting to feel like I'm trapped in a dream
Always feeling scared, and I really wanna scream
I sent about 4 letters to my ex friend
My time with her, is what I'm trying to spend
Can't seem to forgive all the things i did
But I need to relax, stop crying like a kid
I feel like I've been broke for a while
It's actually really hard to even crack a smile
Con Edison won't leave me alone
Now I gotta choose either the bill or my phone
I really wanna travel, and really see the world
Meet different people, probably meet a different girl
Runaway with her, and probably get a house
With no one to bother me or my spouse
But sometimes, I don't know what I want
Make things up, just to stay calm
Come up with ideas, just to past time
I don't really express whats going in my mind
I don't even feel, young anymore
I'm only 22, and I'm always feelings bored
It's kinda hard to find inspiration
When the people around don't have information
I'm going to the dark because I fear
Fear leads to anger regardless if I care
Anger leads to hate
Hate leads to suffering
And on top of all that
My girlfriend left me
Damn