Solar Hound - I wish you never died Lyrics

I wish they never decided to stop breathing
I would live in the past for eternity
They say to not put the blame on me
In this reality how could this be?
Instead I'm lying stuck in my bed
Questioning what's going on inside my head
What could I have done to prevent this?
If only I didn't let their mental health go to shit
Bottles fill up with more trauma the more I'm pulled into drama
Make me wish I wasn't born I feel like my brain is being torn
Can't wrap my brain around what happened why right now did they have to game end?
They are dead and you're to blame you should be feeling fully ashamed!
It was not time for you to go what was your reason I don't know
I miss you why did you have to leave this world behind!
Can't stop sobbing over your dead body you where far from a nobody
They are dead and you're to blame you should be feeling fully ashamed!
I'm at a loss out of hope tried all I could do to cope
Heartbroken soul shattered not like I ever mattered
I want to help but I'm far to weak my mental state's at it's peak
Can't die right now I'll burn in hell but I can't take this any-
Ever sense that day I've never been the same
Oh life is less appealing with out you
I I prayed that you would stay but God had other ways
I don't know how to say but I wish I wish I wis- I wish I wish I wis-
I wish they never decided to stop breathing
I would live in the past for eternity
They say to not put the blame on me
In this reality how could this be?
Instead I'm lying stuck in my bed
Questioning what's going on inside my head
What could I have done to prevent this?
If only I didn't let their mental health go to shit
Bottles fill up with more trauma the more I'm pulled into drama
Make me wish I wasn't born I feel like my brain is being torn
Can't wrap my brain around what happened why right now did they have to game end?
They are dead and you're to blame you should be feeling fully ashamed!
It was not time for you to go what was your reason I don't know
I miss you why did you have to leave this world behind!
Can't stop sobbing over your dead body you where far from a nobody
They are dead and you're to blame you should be feeling fully ashamed!
Ever sense that day I've never been the same
Oh life is less appealing with out you
I I prayed that you would stay but God had other ways
I don't know how to say but I wish I wish I wis- I wish you never
Died