Spiteful - Pay No Mind (feat. Kevin Beaver) Lyrics

Walkin' strong with the team, so I'm done with the disrespect
That I often am handing me, cause emotionally I'm a wreck
Supposed to be a guy settin' himself up for success
But I seldom help the regrets grow less, owe to the stress

Owe so much of my mistakes, and no one loves to help the hateful
But can't help how I was made, get so dejected and ungrateful
Then direct myself to methods so shameful, restin' in hell, acceptance so painful
Depths below angels, guess there's no angle, by which word could free me

I'm unsavable, won't make any progress, each time this game is over
Come back the next day, it's back to square one, run my patience over
Drive away, that's all I wanna do sometimes is find escape
And I relate to those who do some stupid shit in cries of pain

So broken since my youth, explains my violent ways and rising rage
No wonder that these pills and booze the only moves in mind today
I'm overused you'll find me vacant, no excuse which I could make
You know the rules and I'm a break 'em, hopeless to defy this fate

I'm fine and don't wanna talk about it, pay no mind
Got no time for how you process, that's your problem it's not mine
On my grind most when I ain't close to bullshit I don't need
So what I know some time alone the only shit to set me free

I'm fine and don't wanna talk about it, pay no mind
Got no time for how you process, that's your problem it's not mine
On my grind most when I ain't close to bullshit I don't need
So what I know some time alone the only shit to set me free

Stuck, stumbling, now in death, my regrets are set in final
Praying for survival, but each trial desired fire
I'm in dire need to reach, but laying in defeat
I bleed, I think I need to self-reflect, you gave me more as I progressed

You never left, you want the best and yet I showed you disrespect
I'm in my head, awake, can't sleep in bed
Maybe I need some meds instead, meekly seeking seasons
That'll cease the grief that we once believed in, die for reasons

I can't seem to stomach, please don't bother me, don't talk to me
Don't call me Jesus Christ, should f*cking get a life
What I incite is righteousness, but my hypocrisy won't slide
If I could cause this anguish, leave it tainted, then let's face it

I'm a piece of shit, but all you bitches get is famous
Off the evil shit you do, you'll never be so influential
Never flinch when I'm equipped with stencils, got my pencil pointed at you
Can't adapt, can't handle that, but each attack is like a blast

With everything you said you are and everything that's in your past

I'm fine and don't wanna talk about it, pay no mind
Got no time for how you process, that's your problem it's not mine
On my grind most when I ain't close to bullshit I don't need
So what I know some time alone the only shit to set me free

I'm fine and don't wanna talk about it, pay no mind
Got no time for how you process, that's your problem it's not mine
On my grind most when I ain't close to bullshit I don't need
So what I know some time alone the only shit to set me free

Free to make mistakes, free to take away from what I built
Because I kill myself in the name of anguish I live with still

I'm in a field of discouraged disorientation caged by my own mind, yet claim it's going fine
But still I try to toe the line, hope that I can vocalize
Everything that's flowing through my mind
And so I'm going through the motions

Can I be so open to keep hoping
Is it smoking keeping me afloat?

Well the weed be potent, it sees me cope
And the drink keeps slick this slippery slope

Was hidden and missed when needed the most
Shining moments denied, inside I'm too broken
Been moping 'round and you noticed
Been ready to drown it feels hopeless

Gotta just keep going and keep exploding
At every moment that you've been given
Bear witness to what you're missing

F*ck what I'm missing I live in my citadel
Let my vision reveal how to give 'em hell
Sit and tell how I can't permit nobody in my business
Live intrinsic, I maintain

My own devices and mainframe
Code keep splicing can't break away
May assimilate the game
Incinerate the nation, please don't debate no

I'm fine and don't wanna talk about it, pay no mind
Got no time for how you process, that's your problem it's not mine
On my grind most when I ain't close to bullshit I don't need
So what I know some time alone the only shit to set me free

I'm fine and don't wanna talk about it, pay no mind
Got no time for how you process, that's your problem it's not mine
On my grind most when I ain't close to bullshit I don't need
So what I know some time alone the only shit to set me free