Stance - Real Talk (Freewrite) Lyrics

I had a breakdown and it broke my mama's heart
It's myself that I take down
Down
Down
It's like I'm never in sync
My body and mind are separated
Can't see what I think
So failure's in the preparation
I used to hate myself
My mind was bright and shining though
My body isn't feelin' right
I think my mind is startin' to go
Yeah
Save me from me
Life was seen as beautiful
Before my breakdown
My role in life was dutiful
This the only thing that makes me feel like I belong
Lyrics comin' from my heart, so I know that they're strong
I don't know why I struggle
All I do is hustle
You can call me a try hard
I'm flexing every muscle
I'm always feelin' like I'm taking two steps back
I should do this for the fun instead of what I lack
Mama says she's proud, but I gotta see some progress
The path to where I'm goin'?
I sense a f*ckin' hot mess
I guess I start to panic when I'm in a routine
I gotta bust it, bust it down
Gotta show the true me
My level is I'm lyrical
To make it means a miracle
I'm pouring out my soul
So the evidence empirical
Everything looks easy on the outside lookin' in
I want my shit to be the song you play again and again
It's just
I got a story to tell
Would you believe me when I say I'm walkin' through hell?
Lyin' on my face, 'cause I tripped and fell
And who the ground forgives?
I'm never able to tell
I'm a P-O-S
Send an S-O-S
Tryna pass this test
While I weep and stress
I'm bipolar depressed
That's why I'm feelin' so pressed
But f*ck good, you know I'm tryna be the best
I'm somethin' to remember
Like Denzel and the Titans
As the days keep on passin'
You can find me writin'
Making beats that I love
Tryna rid all the spite and
I'm a do it for my dad
Flip life to the right end
Plural for the crisis, identity crises
Being caught in the middle from just talkin' too nicely
I wanna bridge the gap, but some of y'all wanna fight me
The way we treat each other could be tuned so finely
It's just
My heart aches for the earth
When you lessen yourself
You take away from your worth
My own advice is something I don't deserve
Start taking it now before I'm covered in dirt
I focus on the bad
Good passes me by
Shit's keeping me sad
Felt like I've already died
I'm missing the pad
My landing's goin' awry
Shit be gettin' me mad
Because I know it's a lie
Listen
I'm just tryna be real
No, I don't mind showin' how I feel
And this the first step for me breaking the seal
I'm tryna overcome what's breaking the deal
Move forward with a passion
Fruits from the talents
But I lost my balance
From life being a malice
You could call me Alice
A wonderland, no palace
I wasn't feeling so valid
But I'm overcomin' this challenge
Damn
It's myself that I take down
Take, take, myself
Down, down
It's myself that I take down
Take, take, myself
Myself
Take, take, myself
It's myself that I take down