Modest Drinker Video (MV)

I drink, but only modestly, until I puke my guts out
Empty promises are all I keep, they never let me sleep until I pass out
Don't wait up for me, it's not your job, it's not your job
I'm in control here; I'm who decides when this stops

I volunteer as the example, used to scare kids out of hell
Spread my name like a cancer, It'll mean more as a cautionary tale
Don't wait up for me, it's not your job, it's not your job
I'm in control here and I'm who decides when this stops

And I'm never gonna stop myself
I'm not in control, and I never was
I'll destroy us both before I ask your help
I'm nothing if not proud of the damage I've dealt

As a devil's advocate, I've come to know my place
Proving counter points and doing everything in spite
Still smoking cigarettes, even though I've lost the taste
Killing myself slowly on the back porch every night

This can't be for nothing, it's all we have
It's all we want, this is what I want
What a shame that desire doesn't translate to will
I hold the secret to fire but lack the courage to kill

And I'm never gonna stop myself
I'm not in control, and I never was
I'll destroy us both before I ask your help
I'm nothing if not proud of the damage I've dealt
With nothing left to hold on to
We all wanted to believe we're breaking through
Instead of hearing words that would cut me loose
Depart from me the son I never knew

How does it feel to save someone, and watch them jump back in?
Does the spit in your face sting worse than the curse in your ears ring?
Don't hold back from me your wrath is everything