stsvmmer - corners of light in a pitch black room Lyrics

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My eyesight fades in and out in the dark
I get high so I don't lose this art
But it's been gone for quite some time
I have memories of light frozen in my mind
And these high places gotta have low valleys
But not on my wrists, they can't happen without me
It's so dark I can't see my hands
I've been walking for miles with no sign of land

And there's corners of light in a pitch black room
Where they said that I would feel better soon
But my eyes are dried out, I can't stop breathing
Against my will when I think of leaving

A door opens up to my backyard
Where stars and rosebuds are my sacred art
And I imagine if things were different
Would I be this person with no reverence
For my body, this vessel of time
I'm a soul standing straight, walking down the line
I feel like a massive hurricane spinning out of control
No idea where I came from, no idea where to go

And there's corners of light in a pitch black room
Where they said that this would be over soon
But I don't know, I think I lost track
And to be fair, I was never coming back
To the people that I left behind, they did it first
They robbed me blind and then they tell me it hurts
To see me different, to see me change
To picture me in California with the sun on my face
And they don't know what's really human
We gotta change, why else do we do it
I would love to stay home and get high
But it's not the place, it can't be the time

And those corners where I've made my peace are
Stained with blood from pulling my teeth
I gotta start over to see how it ends