SyRn - Victim Lyrics

I was high
But now I'm not
But that's alright
I'll just take another
Every night
I've been fighting
Like survivings
What I want
But it's not
Life is bittersweet
And I can't get enough
I don't wanna taste
I just wanna get away
From the sad things
The things I can't change
Know it's better if let go
What if just loose control
Headed down the low road
Ima mess at my best
I confess what if I was laid to rest
Would I really be at rest?
Life is like its spiraling
I swear I'm not heaven sent
Lord know i ain't innocent
Think he understands
In a sense
I have given
What I'm gifted
I've just driven
And done drifted
On the wrong roads
The wrong path the lord knows
Ive been trying
Tying all the lose ends
Case I'm dying and just loosing
What I'm doing dreams been lucid
Like a nuisance if I knew this
Way before hand I'd have changed the pace
Life ain't just a race I'd have held on just a little longer just in case
I was high
Now I'm not
And I feel like a mess
I take you like a drug
I just can't get enough
Bittersweet
It's a pill
That I don't want to taste
I hate that I've become
A victim of your love
Now it's just to late
I'm an addict and I'm at it
Way to much
With a habit
Wish I had it
If I managed
To combat it
Wouldn't be as bad if
If I just hadn't got a taste
Now it's just to late
And I gotta get a chase
Down the bottle
Pop a pill
Till I can't really feel
I just feel like I keep chasing up a hill
Like I'm falling I'm just stalling
Bawling hoping for my calling
Then I hear my god calling
Like is this really real?
See the light
In the tunnel
Hope they don't make fun of
All my pain
All my worries
All the stories that I told
From the heart all in Parts
I'm just folding
It's so cold and
I don't know if I can keep it up
Shiver then I sniff it up
Feelings fell had to sweep it up
Like your love
It was drugs
Serotonin got me frozen
Like a potion but I'm broken
Who was chosen
Not me that was spoken
This is why I'm never open up
I was high
Now I'm not
And I feel like a mess
I take you like a drug
I just can't get enough
Bittersweet
It's a pill
That I don't want to taste
I hate that I've become
A victim of your love