Toxic. (feat. SUNDEW) Video (MV)

On and On I knew within, I knew I was the problem
I'm feeling out of touch, I lost another bond
On and On I fade away, I'm losing them and my patience
If I'm honest I can bearly see
Can't see the part of the greater scheme
Lost in, inside my head
Another stupid problem I can not make amends
I'm awful
Feeling like I'm toxic
Leaving all my bonds
Then I wonder why I lost it
Awful
Deep inside my head
I've been losing my own head at night
I can not sleep at night
And I'm running all away from the things that I've done
Looking at my messages of people that I loved
You wanna lie to me. But please don't lie to me.
I know they're not but my head is forcing me to
Run away from this
Blocking out their attempts
A forgotten memory
Inside of their story
They're enemies, Not friends I see
I'm losing, that part of me
That was compassionate
But now I'm losing hope within
Feeling out of touch, feeling out of love
Then I go and find another (woah)
Put my baggage on like my bomber coat
Suffocating so they runnin' (dope)
Dread on me like a cloud of rain
Know they love me, but can't see the way
2020 me was okay
But now 23 is alone with pain
I don't... know why I am changing
I don't... want to keep on fading
My head's a labyrinth, complex that I can't find my end
So I'm gonna pass it to SUNDEW so I can catch my breath
I don't know when the passion went away
Why did my brothers say they're here to stay
I keep it quiet don't know what to say
Can't let emotions linger on display
I lost the energy to entertain you
Don't wanna talk cause I don't wanna hate you
I feel like every day I just sustain you
But really I just never wanna lose you
And I hate it...
All the back and forth, I want us to make it
I'll pretend, act like I'm tough and I'll fake it
You don't know how hard it is to explain it, baby
I'm awful
Feeling like I'm toxic
Leaving all my bonds
Then I wonder why I lost it
Awful
Deep inside my head
I've been losing my own head at night
I can not sleep at night (woah)