State of Mind Video (MV)

I feel so out of place
My mind in outer space
And I can't wait for the moment that I come back to base
Something sitting on my shoulders there's a constant weight
What's wrong and what's right I just contemplate
Don't know which path to take
My body start to shake
What if I make a mistake and I get left out to bake
Will it break me down
Will I keep on going
Make it safe and sound
Imma keep on growing
Show me right away
Don't lead my heart astray
Not always light in day
I learned the hard way
Things are not picture perfect
I learned the hard way
All this shit ain't worth it
I learned the hard way
Nobody really care about you less you writing shit
Nobody really care about you less you lighting shit
Nobody really care about you It's a cold world
Nobody really care about you that's a cold world
You got you
You cannot go mute your screaming sounds
See it's true
You can't catch you when you hit the ground
Me and you
So much stronger they can't break us down
See it's true
When it's two nobody take the crown
F*ck all that I sold my soul and went to dance with Satan
Mending bullet holes like he had a healing station
Hot as hell I was getting ready for cremation
Thank god I woke up just my imagination
Get such wild thoughts
Such bloody lacerations
Can't accept the loss
I need an amputation
I need to text my boss
I'm needing his dictation
No I cant go to work
I'm feeling his frustration
Please don't yell at me
My heart accelerating
I need a doctor now
My pulse is fluctuating
Put me down numb the pain I don't wanna feel
Don't wanna squirm don't wanna scream no I don't wanna squeal
State of mind is f*cked no there is no turning back
All these people try to help well you have fun with that
I tried running I got tired so I went to sleep
Couldn't do it wide awake I even counted sheep
I've accepted the fact that this is who I am
Get in bed at 10
Asleep by 2 am
Nothing wrong minus me and all my reminiscing
Nothing wrong minus me and all my swing and missing
I just write down what is going on inside my head
I just try to show you what it's like inside the dead
I just try and be real about my state of mind
I don't worry bout the future that's just wasting time
I wish I was in control cause I would hit rewind
So I could go ahead and relive all those happy times
I don't wanna paint new pictures want it all again
I don't wanna see the scripture I don't want the end