Teezi Pink - Drowned in Moonlight Lyrics

Midnight where you sit tight under moon light
On the eve on the day when you try to end your life
Doesn't sound right
Never sound clear
Only sounds weird
When you get your guns out
Once you get your room cleared
Clear it out
Get your pills out
Tie your knots right
Be a Boy Scout
Doubt doubt
Take a new route once it goes south
Bye bye
But no ones leaving here alive
So we'll walk it hand and hand until the end, and then we'll take a nose dive

Did van Gogh swallow yellow paint so he could ingest happiness
Or did he swallow it because he knew that it was poisonous
Can we talk about the tortured souls of artists we look to when we need to create
Do we appreciate only when it seems depression has moved them into a higher state
Captivate the viewer then they're gone by twenty seven
Up to heaven, when they all become a legend
Do we listen
We look to the stars
We look to the sky
Their problems we can't grasp it
This is what's keeping me up at night
When I know children are sneaking a gun out the cabinet

I hear what you say
I've said what you've said
I wrote my apology letter to Dad
I promised I'd never thoughts get that bad
Until I was carving my arms on my bed
Words saying "monster" and "die", "broken" and "worthless" and "give up" I said
Cause I couldn't say what I felt
It's sad
Now it's just making me mad
Cause I'm not the only one
I know there's kids out there thinking they're phony
The loneliness seeping inside them
While smiling "nobody knows what I'm going through" crying out
Listen to me, someone will listen and if they don't
They aren't worthy of your words at all
A call to action is what I am saying
A brawl with your inner demons
I bawl that this will not leave us
Nobody sees it
Not until we tear down all of our walls
I know what you think when you're grabbing that bigger blade
Thicker the blade, the more I deserve it
My scars, the thicker and thin ones, they're my story how I survived
But it isn't over
It's everyday on my game
This is my illness that always drags me like it's foreplay
My thoughts say when I pray it's payday cause I'm prey and I'm on that buffet
When I'm in my black hole where I stay till I yell "okay, hey"
Just let me breath

I'm no longer sinking
I've climbed on the boat
Some weren't as lucky
Dead before I wrote this song
Not that it matters cause what can you say
If they made their mind up, they're leaving some day
I pray that they don't
I pray that we stop
But how do we help each other survive when we also wanna die inside
Having no motivation to stay alive
When our greatest enemy lives within our minds
What's the only thing that can help
Against the cards that were dealt
If you think you know it, then you do
Think about it a moment and know that it's true
Easy to love others but impossible for us
So love your neighbor as yourself
But more importantly, love yourself like your neighbor