T-Jin & Tha Real Kato - Darkness Lyrics

I went from raindrops to waterfalls to drowning in the sea
Hard to keep my head above it all, now I can't even breathe
Slowly sinking, all this drinking really got me in too deep
Demons whisper in my ear, they try to get me in my sleep
But I'm wide awake, devils must still be inside of me
No, I won't die today, zannies come and take my mind away
And I can't hide away, the guilt don't bother me
It always finds its way back
So I try to get some rest and go to bed
Then I wake up feeling suicidal
Hand on the bible and I pray
But I'm losing vitals
To false idols and they claim
Holding on to my soul
Another bottle down the drain
But I'm feeling hollow
I can't seem to numb the pain

Can't see a thing in this darkness
Don't leave me here with these problems
I roll up the weed 'cuz that solves 'em
No easy living, it gets harder, won't

You call me up 'cuz I hope you might
I say I don't love you but I always lie
You say that I shouldn't, that it don't feel right
I don't feel right, it don't feel right
Girl, especially when I'm alone at night
All I wanna do is to hold you tight
You say that I shouldn't and I know you're right
I know I'm high, I know you're right

You care about me but I cannot be saved
And tonight I stay up late like I'm stuck in my ways
Got the feeling something's wrong and I'm taking up space
See a lot of people smiling but I cannot relate
And if I keep this up there's a price to be paid
I can't lie, I'm broken by my own mistakes
As I cry and I'm hoping to see better days
I try to survive, death is not far away

When I feel emotion
I just bottle it away
I can't see the motions
I am caught up in the waves
As I keep avoiding
All the thoughts up in my brain
I can't sleep alone when
I am hiding from the pain