Not Myself Video (MV)

Another grey day go by, sipping on an 805
Living on the low like an 808, how I stay so great? My state of mind
Hunting for the ace of diamonds, I'ma take my time
But afraid that I will fade if I take a break gotta face the fire
In the belly of the beast got ate alive, help me I'm weak I ache inside
Well-being needs a way to thrive, tell me at least how you change the tide
Weight of the world gunna break your spine, why I always gotta fake I'm fine?
Gunna overcome this great divide, when its all done I'ma make ya mine
You'll never know me but thank you for just trying to
Forever lonely, I'm at peace with my solitude
Only, only gotta piece but I want all of you
Got hurt a couple times so I'm putting up a wall or two
I get it in abundance but its never quite enough
I'm living in a dungeon and its hard to open up
I'm having trouble trusting, its not as we discussed
Bout to ma-ma-malfunction well within a month

I'm on my own, yeah I gotta go
Gimme a dose, I need it now, now, now, now
I'm all alone, don't tell me I know, yeah
Feeling my woes, I'm going down, down, down, down
I'm unwell, in my shell, not myself (not myself)
I'm in hell, need some help with my health (with my health)
I'm unwell, in my shell, not myself (not myself)
In my shell, not myself (not myself)

Everyone ask you "why you been in a bad mood?"
Making me nuts like a cashew, getting under my skin like a tattoo
Suddenly I'm in a vacuum, of sad news, my own thoughts
I'll be back soon with a cold heart but I'm past due with my loan shark
If I'm okay send a post card, there's no way that the coast guard
Can make it out to make me, yeah I'm too far out to sea
Need a key like Bach and Mozart cuz I'm itching to be free
But my soul starts to explode so I'm dodging the debris yeah
Man Its all a blur, all a blur
Why'd I have to fall for her? I'm blue just like an officer
Who am I? Not so sure but speech is king like Colin Firth
I'm giving you my solemn word, lifeline who you calling first?
I'm coping, I'm just coping need to medicate
I'm just hoping, I'm just hoping for some better days
The devil say hello man why I gotta let him stay?
I'm praying to the God who made the seven days, but I'm

I'm on my own, yeah I gotta go
Gimme a dose, I need it now, now, now, now
I'm all alone, don't tell me I know, yeah
Feeling my woes, I'm going down, down, down, down
I'm unwell, in my shell, not myself (not myself)
I'm in hell, need some help with my health (with my health)
I'm unwell, in my shell, not myself (not myself)
In my shell, not myself (not myself)