Traa - Never Thought Lyrics

I
Never thought it'd be this hard
I can not regard all of this pain
Fake smile on my face, every day, every day
Suicidal thoughts, all day, every day
And my favorite song came on, we gon' let it replay
Till the sun come up and I feel the rays
Blades on blades, meeting with the veins
I'm f*cked up, but they won't say it to my face
I
Never thought it'd be this hard
So much pain every day, every day
Fake smile on my face, it's the same damn thing
Suicidal thoughts, let em' all replay
All day, everyday, so much pain
Blades on blades, meeting with the veins
I'm f*cked up, but they won't say it to my face
Suicidal thoughts, all day, replay
I heard a song that sounded brand new
And it, and it
Reminded me of you
I think, I think
That my time is through
If I can't be with you, then what can I do?
I'm f*cked up, too drunk
Smokin' up on that skunk
F*cked up, f*cked up
Lil shorty, I'm f*cked up
I can't get out of sight
I f*cked it up for life
Don't think I will survive
Four little pillies and a brand new knife
Slit my throat, yeah, I bet it look nice
Put a mark in the middle of my forehead
Bullseye
You can find me on the floor dead
Fungi
He say, I say, she say, they say
I don't give a f*ck, just listen to what I say
Nothing that I ever do is ever enough
I've been feeling so damn stuck
And I don't think that I can get up
I never thought it'd be this hard
So much pain every day, every day
Fake smile on my face, it's the same damn thing
Suicidal thoughts, let em' all replay
All day, everyday, so much pain
Blades on blades, meeting with the veins
I'm f*cked up, but they won't say it to my face
Suicidal thoughts, all day, replay