transmissions from the water-tower - freezer burn Lyrics

I got freezer burn in the middle of the afternoon
From the stare that you had laid on me -
Didn't think I would see you so soon.

The last time we talked, well, I thought we were the best of friends,
But now you do not like me anymore?
And I wondered what had changed since then.

Because I had been so sorry,
And you had been so gracious.
We were older, we were wiser
We had grown and we had patience.
So don't tell me I'm remorseless, you know that that's not true.
You know that there is nothing I can do.

I got freezer burn like somebody walked upon my grave
And the people that I love went cold,
And I cannot always be so brave.

So, forgive me. Forgive me if I am not all here,
There are demons haunting all my dreams,
And I wish that I think more clear -

Because I had been so horrified
At who I used to be.
It's not something I can solve with drugs
Or years of therapy.
So don't paint an evil picture of the man I have become.
'Cause if you do, all I can do is run -

I'll run so far
But you will find me
And like the ocean swallowed you,
The sun will blind me

I caught my younger self
When one day he tried to creep
Back into my personality,
I killed him in his sleep.
Suffocated with a pillow
Upon my bed of shame
And to differentiate myself
I even changed my name.
Changed my hair and all my contacts
And the photos in my phone
Were sealed away behind a passcode
That the younger me had known
But I didn't want to see them
Because that would mean he lived,
And I would come face to face
With all the awful things he did.
Then his ghost began to haunt me
And your words were ringing true
And I wasn't superstitious,
But there was nothing I could do
And I begged for retribution
And I begged to be set free.
But he is still here
Faintly taunting me.

Because I had been so sorry,
And you had been so gracious.
We were older, we were wiser
We had grown and we had patience.
So don't tell me I'm remorseless, you know that that's not true.
You know that there is nothing I can do.