Trystin - Beauty Queen Lyrics

Beauty Queen from my dreams
What you mean I missed the scene
I kept it clean like Mr. Clean
Did the things you asked of me
From petty things, to diamond rings, to everything in between
Left my team my legacy, even though I didn't agree
Put you on a pedestal, you didn't put me level though
You kept up with your side hoes, while I planned our future goals
Even dropped some old hoes, lost some of my old bros
Damn I wish I would've known, you were gonna leave me broke

Now I got this hole in my heart
Damn, I wish I could restart
Now I'm a man I'll say my part
Let my anger show in the dark
Ooh raised my voice too
Lost my patience rude
Treated you like your old dude
Damn, sorry boo

But I promise gave it all to you
From the family trips, the love and sh*t, the flower gifts
The hours sh*t, my mind and heart that's ripped to bits
I mean that sh*t

It did me in to see you dip
Go back to him after what he did
Guess I can't really say sh*t
You forgot about our days quick
Riding through town in my new whip
Learned new shit to please your heart
Held you down through your bad thoughts
Even your frown makes my heart stop
Told you things I could tell no one
Even down to the names of my sons
Swear you made me the happiest man
Living this life feels so damned
Though I had it mapped out
Guess it's time to replan now
I'm just trying to flex but my heart just feels so dead now

Even though life was boring, you made that sh*t feel important
Chillest days, or simple dates to Target runs felt like soaring
Page by page it's getting great, but it's a sad story about a boy who chased a Beauty Queen
Who ended up sad and lonely
Now I tell that story and pray it don't hurt you
You forgot my name and could give a f*ck what I do
Crazy how I still pray for you, the best for you, and support you through the shadow blue
A different view that's missing you Cindy Lou

My hearts so big I hate it sometimes
Still give you love through all your crimes
Wish I could give you an eye for an eye for wasting my time, but I'm way too kind
F*ck it, I'll keep it inside the back of my mind with the rest of the words
That don't side too kind, leave it behind
I'm still gone shine, focus my grind
So it's okay Beauty Queen, do your thing, chase your dreams
I'm doing me, got this green, some luxuries that make me feel complete
Some shiny things, some dimes with me, who vibe with me, who ride on me
The irony of you and me, Beauty Queen