TTE Truth - Dear Queen Lyrics

This Is How I Feel Know That Ima Shine
I wasn't ready for it but I guess it was yo time
Sometimes I sit back and ask myself why
The people I'm close with always gotta die
I would give up anything just to have you around
I would do anything just to see how you smile
They say keep ya head up but I'm thinking like how
When I first got the news man that shit broke me down
Like death creeped on us mane that shit came around
Usedt to think u here forever cuz u never shutdown
You my #1 soldier cuz you never backdown
And you taught me being lazy was never allowed
Never thought I would write this but it's bringing me down
I wish heaven had a phone so I can hear how you sound
And I won't ever stop cuz I'm holding it down
I swear I ain't gonna stop till I'm making you proud
Who gone really feel me ain't nobody to call to
I keep all this pain in aint nobody to talk to
When I was feeling down u the one that I fall too
How I met Rod Wave the same week that I lost you
I wish you could tell me te amo negrito
And I could sit by you fill you up with besitos
You made a lot of shit happen I thought you was a wizard
Remember all the times you would see me catching lizards
Ima miss all the breakfast all the lunches and the dinners
And if that food cold that shit would have you triggered
They say you gotta take a loss so you could be the winner
Forgive me for my sins cuz I know that ima sinner
Give me all the strength show me all the wisdom
Couldn't handle it I'm trying to ball like I'm kemba
We was supposed to celebrate my 18th in November
Now shit won't be the same when it's Christmas in December
Waiting to wake up
This feels like a nightmare
Nobody really knows how I felt when I was right there
Holding my nana hand while her spirit going upstairs
I ain't wanna let go but I couldn't be selfish
I know all this a plan
It taught me this lesson
Taught me how to forgive all the problems don't stress it
All the hospital visits showed me that u really solid
Cherish all ya folks cuz tomorrow ain't promise
Should've been better gotta be honest
I mean I'm repping TTE so i gotta be modest
I'm on whole another level
I speak like a prophet
Double up I won't drop it
I wrote this shit for my papa
And I know better days will come I just pray for mama
I hope all my enemies never go thru this trauma
This Life shit too short so f*ck all the drama
I had so much rage I was steaming like saunas
She was like que paso
Tell her it's nada
I just wish I had more time just to tell you my problems
Thankful for all the years that u gave it was knowledge
Julian was Batman u dressed me as robin
Had so much tears
That my eyes felt clouded
You helped raised me while my mom looked for houses
Everybody been a hunnid but u kept it a thousand
Everything the same
Yo shells on the dresser
If heaven got a mailbox then this is my letter
God got you now
That pain ain't forever
I know you in paradise
You done got thru the weather
For you ima stay focus and hope for the better
I'm out