Ultra Violet - SHATTERED. Lyrics

I'm a slave to minimum wage, feelin' drained, and depleted
Feel like every day is the same, I'm tired of seein' them repeated
Tired of feelin' like I'm crazy, tired of feeling so mistreated
How the f*ck am I supposed to live, when I feel like life wants me defeated?
I feel lost to the world, yet somethin' keeps me tethered
To the shit that crush my soul, I'm tired of feeling so weathered
'Told I can't just follow dreams, I'm tired of feeling so pressured
An' I got too much on my mind, to really fit inside this record
'Cus I feel split, and I feel like shit, I got this knot inside my chest
I'm suffocatin' from this pain, yet I can't take no f*ckin' rest
I been stressed and depressed, tryna do my f*ckin' best
To still be the sweet, nerdy motherf*cker on my quest
I worry I'll never be okay, my legs are buckling under the weight
I feel lonely in my praise, but I'll still try to elevate
Strain to create somethin' great, I'm out of time, I cannot wait
Three A.M. and I'm still writing, tryna escape this dreaded fate
Mentally a mess, feelin' f*ckin' oppressed
The will I have to keep living is becoming less and less
Every step that I take, I feel there's no progress
Thought I'd be able to get my life together, but I'm too stressed
F*ck it all, I'm breaking, I can't take it anymore
Mind's cracking, body's aching, I can't get up off the floor
Fightin' this dark loneliness got me feeling so sore
I'm alone in a darkened mind, and I'm not seeing any door
I say, "it is what it is", but f*ck, that's just to cope
With the fact that I'm fallin', I been on that down slope
I'm so tired of fightin' to feel like I matter, get some hope
Tired of making myself broke, and then trying to stay afloat
Maybe I'm just miserable
Maybe I'm a piece of shit
Maybe I'm a narcissistic nihilist who doesn't know to quit
Maybe I'm just a f*ckin bitch
Or maybe I cannot commit
I'm f*ckin' shattered into pieces
Only thing I can admit