Un Syrah - Memento Mori Lyrics

I mean is something wrong with me?
Because I know that I did an awful thing
And I'm doing it again right now!
But I cant' stop myself from doing it
That's how badly I need to feel something again
Like I'm an addict!
There has to be something wrong with me
Can I apologize?
What if I tell you I was wrong?
Would that work?
Would that fix it?
I don't know
I don't think it will
But there's nothing else that I can do
Just tell me what you want
I'm sorry
I'm sorry!
Please
Please help me
Please give me some of whatever it is that makes you complete
I want whatever that wholeness is that you just
Summoned out of nothing and you put into your work
You were complete in some way that I never was!
I want to know how to be a good person
I want to know how not to hate myself
Please!
I'm fading
And all I want is to know that I'm going to be okay

Hoy desperté
Sintiéndome
Solo un idiota más en este mundo
Creyendome
Que el tiempo es
Sólo una gota más en un diluvio

Ey
En donde están
Mi fortuna y todas las certezas
Que se disipan como niebla?

Me fui a dormir
Sin sonreir
Y sentí que todo era tan confuso
Me vi partir
Lejos de mi
Y regresar tal vez en un segundo

Ey
Pero quizá
Es solo mi imaginación perversa
Lo que mis días atormenta

Sé
En donde están
Los sueños que nunca llegan a nada
Y
Puedo enumerar
Las razones por las que confiar te mata

A veces creo que solo somos un chiste
Y no sé si es mi sentido del humor o es
O es uno muy triste
Y a veces pienso que no existen los amigos
A veces creo que solo somos vicios
Solo somos vicios

Was I a failure
For not understanding this game?
I mean I don't know why I would be
It's not like everything needs to have a solution
But I feel it somehow
I feel like I failed
And I don't understand why