unLOaded - Distant Memories, Pt. 1 Lyrics

From my soul to yours, it's such a long way
But I'd travel anywhere, anywhere you'd say
Life moves so fast, but we can't go slow
You leak away and I'll follow

If only you knew
If only you knew
What I've been through
What I've been through

I don't think you
I don't think you
Would look at me how you do
Would look at me how you do

Please forgive me
I know how I can be
I know what you think
I know what you mean

I know how it seems
No, it's not a dream
It's the real thing
You just don't know the real me

Started when I was 11
I woke up in the middle of the night
Parents yelling
So much weight on me

But I had nowhere to share it
A few months later
Now my parents are separate
I still remember where I was when he said it

Sitting at the table like a tale that he meant it
I don't think that he had real bad intention
I just think it was something missing
I thought maybe it was the love

Thought maybe it was drugs
Thought maybe it was trust
Then I had to show the strut
I knew my mama needed hugs

So I had to be a thug
The look on my mama's face, it hurt me
I wonder why my pops would desert me
Going through this trauma, it hurt me

Felt like he just didn't deserve me
He was homeless, had to stay with my cousin
He had nothing and he had an apartment
I didn't trust him, didn't wanna see him for nothing

I confronted, I started seeing darkness
As times I got down
It was nobody around who could help me
My world turned around

I even tried working out, staying healthy
Everybody needed me, my brother and my sister too
Your father left your siblings
And your mother tell me what you do

I just had to be a man, I was only 12 in middle school
I was young, I was dumb
I didn't know how much emotion grew
I didn't know how much emotion grew

I didn't know how much emotion grew