Letter to Scotty Video (MV)

Beam me up, Scotty
Take me far far away
Away from this place
Away from the pain here
Take me up into space
To somewhere with no fear
No fear, Scotty
Of falling in love
And being above the clouds
With the doves in the stratosphere
I can't stay here
Beam me up, Scotty
Cause I just don't belong
And I've known for so long
Oh I feel like King Kong here
Distressed and deranged
I'm fighting these planes and these tears
(These tears, Scotty)
And I'm trying to hide because
Big boys don't cry
But there's no hiding here
Make me disappear
I'm scared that things won't change
This feeling inside won't dissipate
What am I to do?
Who do I turn to?
I'm told that I should stay
But this voice in my head
Keeps pushing me your way
Am I fool? Give me a clue
Beam me up, Scotty
My friends keep saying I'm fine
But tears keep leaving my eyes
(Beam me up, Scotty)
Feeling my mind circle the drain
I'm down here screaming your name
(Beam me up, Scotty)
Keep finding a reason to go
This place doesn't feel like home
(Beam me up, Scotty)
Before I go on my own
Beam me up, Scotty
Help me out, Scotty
Please send me a sign
(Will I be alright or should I look for a way out)
Just tell me that I'll be fine
(Because I'm down for the count and I'm looking for a way out)
Oh will I find love?
(Or will I cry alone forever)
Oh will I find love?
Because love for me
Doesn't make sense to me
How could anybody else here love me
If I don't even like me
Self hates been pulling me down
I think I'm starting to drown
Won't please come and help me out
I can't stay around
I need your help now, hmm
Beam me up, Scotty
My friends keep saying I'm fine
But tears keep leaving my eyes
(Beam me up, Scotty)
Feeling my mind circle the drain
I'm down here screaming your name
(Beam me up, Scotty)
Keep finding a reason to go
This place doesn't feel like home
(Beam me up, Scotty)
Before I go on my own