vary - Feel right now Lyrics

I don't wanna feel right now
I don't wanna feel right now
Thinking ´bout it hurts too much
I don't wanna think at all
And I don't wanna talk tomorrow
Can't talk about it anymore
Maybe it's something I should care about
But I don't wanna feel right now
Staring at myself in the mirror,
After sitting on the floor for hours
I got red spots on my face
And my eyes are sore
I don't see clear no more,
I don't know what to do no more
This is not what I was looking for,
So I wish I could just ignore
I can't self regulate
I can't handle all this pain
I don't wanna be this way
If I could, then I would change
That you don't understand how you hurt me really hurts
But you understanding and not caring would be worse
I don't wanna feel right now
I don't wanna feel right now
Thinking ´bout it hurts too much
I don't wanna think at all
And I don't wanna talk tomorrow
Can't talk about it anymore
Maybe it's something I should care about
But I don't wanna feel right now
I wake up in panic every time I try to fall asleep
Staying awake I will get anxious,
Thinking ´bout what you said to me
Why is this my daily life?
I am only getting restless nights
And I don't even chose these fights,
They´re just consuming time
I'd rather be, rather be, rather be distant
I'd rather be, rather be, rather be,
Rather be switching my feelings off
It's not healthy
I'm just pushing away
But I can't take it
Nothing left in me
Nothing left to say
So I try to escape it
I don't wanna feel right now
I don't wanna feel right now
Thinking bout it hurts too much
I don't wanna think at all
And I don't wanna talk tomorrow
Can't talk about it anymore
Maybe it's something I should care about
But I don't wanna feel right now
I don't wanna feel right now
I don't wanna feel right now
I don't wanna feel right now
I don't wanna feel right now