Vehemntt - Ego Death Lyrics

This fine woman told me
I was the most beautiful thing she's ever seen
So I said, oh sweet pea
Men aren't beautiful, surely that's not what you mean
And she said, oh darling
Men aren't half of everything that they seem
It's okay to come to terms
With what you've felt since fifteen

I am not a man-well, not by definition.
I am just a boy who's got a couple brain conditions
And I'm much too old to play pretend
And I'm much too young to make amends with the con
Cept that my future's sitting just around the bend
Do you wish me happy or do you wish me dead?
I don't think you noticed that you cut me and I bled
Do you wanna see me hangin' on just by a thread?
Do you wish the albatross was still around my neck?
Do you wish I felt the way you felt right now instead?
Did you think I'm only here to get you in my bed?
Do you truly think that everything is in my head?
Tell me, be honest, I promise, won't be offended
I know our end wasn't splendid but I still wish we had spent it
With somewhat better intentions than everybody expected
And I depended on you but you simply weren't affected
I know you weren't the best for me, and I wasn't the best to you
But I'm a cut above, the rest all just be wantin' some sex with you
And I just wanted the best for you, and all I asked was the best from you
But I wasn't askin' much, I turned the volume up
I asked a little bit louder but now I'm asking too much
And suddenly I'm making wine from rotten grapes in the bunch
I done heard through the grapevine that you've been searching a bunch
For a couple dudes that you can bang after some coffee and brunch
Now is that to get back at me or something or what?
And suddenly I'm backtracking if I done ask you wassup?
Or maybe I still care and I be caring too much
For a girl who don't understand like how I'm feeling and such
Be careful, you fly high, you might get caught in a plane
I ride coach but my brain is drifting farther away
And everybody here is changing but I'm feelin' the same
I get the dragon balls and wish to keep my ego at bay, aye

I told her
I know I have an ego, and I hide it very well
So she said
You can throw a bag of garbage but you can't escape the smell
She looked at me as if to say
She knew what was in my brain
Then stated that "If you lose your umbrella
Then you can never dodge the rain."