Killing myself slowly
So no one notices
I have a pain growing
But I can't pinpoint it
You make me forget about those things sometimes
Hope I'm not using you to get through this ride
I'm a coward on the frontline
I'm a hypocrite with my time
I've spoke bigger things than white lies
And I'm good at cutting my ties
But you scare me
Cause I really don't wanna f*ck this up
It's part of why I'm slowing down with drugs
But I'm never pouring out this cup
I've set the bar so low for myself that I trip over it every time I get up
How do I let myself get to the point where I'm laying in bed trying not to throw up
And it's not a worry cause everyone knows that I practically do this shit for fun
Last week I looked myself right in the mirror and I said I hate us
I'm a coward on the frontline
I'm a hypocrite with my time
I've spoke bigger things than white lies
And I'm good at cutting my ties
But you scare me
Cause I really don't wanna f*ck this up
It's part of why I'm slowing down with drugs
But I'm never pouring out this cup