Trouble Video (MV)

Trouble, trouble
On the double, double
These times are gettin' harder and I'm far down in the rubble of the
Trouble, trouble
On the double, double
F'm fightin' for the light to find at the end of the tunnel

I'm up at the end of my line
Thought everything would be fine
Thought with the reasons I had to believe in myself that I wouldn't decline
But I am just going through the motions
Trying to hold it together
Trying to weather the weather, but brighter days don't seem to be any better
Suicide thoughts, what you and I brought, I wanted to be on a stretcher
Lookin' for ways to negate all the pain, hooked on this feeling of restless
Thinkin' I need intervention
A reason to breathe without stressin'
I'm leaving the keys in the engine
But not putting foot on this pedal for revvin'
I need some, need some, better avenues for navigation
Some better ways to phase the maze of steady traffic waitin'
Got static in habits that damage the manner my brain has been operatin'
And these thoughts that I got, the ones that get caught
It's a shame that they not forsaken
I'm feeling so caught up in darkness
My heart has been breaking, it's a lot to take in
Right at the bottom, deciding to rise up above
But I'm robbed of patience
Grab ahold of a cold one, I'm calling the shots
I'm rockin' a pop to chase it
Thank god for my homies that know me
I'm lonely, this shit is a lot to be facing

Trouble, trouble
On the double, double
These times are gettin' harder and I'm far down in the rubble of the
Trouble, trouble
On the double, double
F'm fightin' for the light to find at the end of the tunnel

Shoutout to my homies picking up my calls at 2 in the morning
When I'm faded and gone
Stuck in this pain so I'm on one
Going insane so I call 'em
Losing my brain in this tug of war between my brain and my heart, yeah
I wear my heart on my sleeve, but what's it gotten for me?
It seems like everybody knows the f*ckin' problems I see
But there's something deep inside, this shit is rotten in me
I got my pumped up kicks, listening to Foster the People
So I head for the steeple
Thinking this world is cruel and deceitful
Down on both of my knees
Pleading to God, give me peace, bro
Let me breathe, where is the love, what is the fee
That I need to be paying?
I swear that I'll pay it, I've been f*ckin' patient as I can be
I thought that she was the love of my life
Four years together, the shit felt so right
But all of a sudden, a drop in my stomach
Guess we had just hit the end of our ride
Feeling like I'd have been better off stuffed in the back of a hearse
My head was descending to depths of the negative
Just when I thought that it couldn't get worse

Trouble, trouble
On the double, double
These times are gettin' harder and I'm far down in the rubble of the
Trouble, trouble
On the double, double
F'm fightin' for the light to find at the end of the tunnel

Now I'm feeling out of my element, drunk for the hell of it
Snapping at everyone round me cuz selfishness
Nothing in life to be relishing
Inside i'm yelling at myself to tell it in
Songs like the one that I'm writing right now
So I type it or write it to try to find relevance
But new developments send me to hell again
Wish I'd remember my lesson with elegance
I never forget, but forgive too easy
Wish my life could be perfect and breezy
Wish my time was worth more than this TV
This Netflix, and beer, and this nicotine seeping
Spend all of my free time sleeping
Ruminating and overthinking
Wish I woulda done this or done that
But the fact is right now I'm alone each evening
And f*ck, I missed her
And without her at first I was miserable
Savor the thought that at one point in time I was able to kiss and hold her
And I can't get sober, and I can't seem to lift this boulder
Whenever I would try to sleep, my mind would repeat what I never told her
But time will heal I guess
For right now, gotta feel the stress
But that feeling I had when it happened felt like bombs were blasting inside my chest
Now she's pregnant by some other man, and it hurts but I wish her the best
As for me, gotta do what I can, wrap up my damage and call it Vex