444 Video (MV)

444, a collection of ideas, thoughts and observations, selfless emulation initiative
An attempt to connect
If I gave myself to you, would you accept me
Music helped me so much, I do this because I want to help you

If I wasn't so f*cked up mentally, maybe I could make better music
I started having suicidal thoughts when I was eight
If you were born in my condition, do you think you could do better
I always worry that I'm not good enough

I hate that people don't believe in me, but I don't blame them
I like the idea of looking at life like a prison sentence
You have to keep breaking your heart until it opens
Stupidity is respected if it's backed up by courage, meanwhile great ideas are ignored

If proposed by cowards
I know much about pain, but I don't really know anything about life
Catroprtic Tristesse, the biggest weakness and strength of humanities that will never know
What someone else is thinking

Body dysmorphia ruined my life
I'm surprised I haven't made more bad decisions, to be honest
I was always in love with fantasy, never too concerned with reality
Most people don't want love, they want to be loved

Nowadays happiness only comes in short waves of nostalgia
Art is prostitution
Everything about me feels so performative
I honestly don't think that we have made any tangible progress when it comes to mental

Health awareness
Any mental illness that cannot be romanticized is instantly demonized
There is still a huge lack of understanding and compassion
Why do I feel like I owe it to the world to be miserable

Is suicide more tragic when it's a rash decision or a well-planned action
Sometimes I need to remind myself that I'm incredibly young
Internal cohesion is really important in my creative process
Okay, if everyone gets a star, then the star becomes worthless, right

Well, if you never get a star, do you become worthless
We don't live in a validating world
What's so bad about a participation trophy
A small, I see you, you know

Do you see me
Music is my way out
I have to work harder than the rest for the same results
I understand

I love life, but it seems to hate me
I want you to accept this as a sign that I'm trying
I want to change
I want you to see that I want to change

I want you to see that change is possible
I want you to see me
I want to be talented, because no matter who I am as a person, talent cannot be denied
I want to be so good at what I do that I cannot be denied

I always was and always will be underappreciated
I wish my mood was more stable
I can be hard to recognize
I feel no pride

I'm terminal in your mind
I have no confidence
If people don't hear of my life, I'm making sure that they at least hear of my..
I'm unsure if I was sexually abused or not

I have so many memories, but I'm locked out so much that I just can't be sure
Sometimes I drink myself to sleep
I've been in pain for a long, long time
I've been abused in every single way you can imagine

I'm unsure if anyone could like me
I'm too scared to put myself out there
Privilege and kill has always been an object of ridicule
I'm not used to being taken serious

When I was a kid, all I wanted was to be treated like everyone else
I have so much hate for myself that I don't think I could hate another human being
Compliments make me way more uncomfortable than insults
Don't take criticism from someone you won't take advice from

Finding yourself is not a final destination
There is always more you
There is beauty in letting go
I wish individuality was celebrated in society

Have you ever considered how much genius we missed out on because of judgment
Despite everything, I still believe in myself
No, I don't
Sometimes dying seems too good to be true

The dichotomy of heaven and hell never made sense to me
How could you appreciate heaven if you've never seen hell
I don't want to be alone
I'm just so scared

I don't feel like a person
I am a genius
Sometimes I fantasize about pretty dark things
The most impactful things are a mix between irony and honesty

You perpetuate negative cycles, yet you expect a positive outcome
You know, it's funny
I claim to be open-minded, but I f*cking hate being outsmarted
Love is a game of dominance

Young people put too much pressure on themselves
Having to be an adult when you're a kid results in being a kid when you're an adult
I'm the kind of guy that could accidentally kill someone and not even notice
What does that even mean

What if you die and nothing changes
Whether you want to or not, you have no choice
I should hate you instead of hating myself for what you did to me
I honestly cannot imagine my future

There's no light in my eyes
I gave up on myself a long time ago
There's nothing
Nothing

Nothing
444
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Nevertheless if you took time out of your day to read this I love you, help me so I can help you