Bling Video (MV)

I'm dying inside and trying to show it
I put up the signs but nobody would know it
It's hard to act strange when weird is normality
I know it's my fault but I wish they would notice me
I dropped a song with no notice a cry for attention
I titled it "Shadows" my own intervention
Nobody reached out as a means of prevention
But that song was a note listen closely you'll catch on

I feel so misunderstood
More than I ever thought I could be
I walk through this neighborhood
Homeless but I'll say I'm good

Mumbling new wave and rapping to trap
Not making my own beats man what's up with that
Has anyone noticed the theme to this act
They said it was strange but they still bump with that
That's the response from those who have my back
It's no wonder kids coming to school with a gat
Kill a few phonies and then fade to black
They'll act so surprised by the outlined attack
As if caught off guard by the obvious track
Or avoiding admitting the love that they lack
It's much harder to notice than turn a blind eye
Pills ignore what without saying why
Messages read but get no reply
Despite failed attempts I reach out I try
Cover the sting with some bling keep the lowest ones high
Laugh it off they can't see you cry

I feel so misunderstood
More than I ever thought I could be
I walk through this neighborhood
Homeless but I'll say I'm good

If I bring them joy I feed off the energy
If I annoy it feels like the end of me
Circus freak sideshow I just want acceptance
Sing and tell jokes to those who bear witness
I put on a smile to become a jester
And still all the while the suicide pesters
Don't mean to provoke her I'm pleading with God
My gimmick's a joker so I'm Jason Todd

I am so misunderstood
Much more than I ever should be
I die in this neighborhood
Homeless but you say I'm good