Shadow // Self Video (MV)

If I could only see
What I've done to myself
Within the walls of my mind
The memories of misery that keep me up at night
Tossing and turning
Screaming will this ever end

Whispering fears of doubt
Telling me it's the end
They only want to watch me burn
Break me, f*ck me up, forsake me
I can't be set free
Numb in the veins
But the pain won't go away
Hell's inside my mind and this gloom won't fade away

If I could leave behind
All the doubts that linger now
Inside my mind
Before they drag me under

It breaks me down becoming who I said I'd never be
Keep on telling lies to keep up this masquerade
To give the impression I'm someone always in control
Now joy's a feeling that evades me
Passes me by for momentary seconds of bliss

I wish to be blinded by the wonders of life but really I'm just giving in
I've lost myself to a voice inside my head
In a world surrounded by love I'm still alone

I wish to be blinded by the wonders of life but really I'm just giving in
I've lost myself to a voice inside my head
In a world surrounded by love I'm still alone
So alone

If I could leave behind
All the doubts that linger now
Inside my mind
Before they drag me under
Give me something to cling to
Somebody to help me find my way
So I can leave behind
The doubts that linger

I wish to be blinded by the wonders of life but really I'm just giving in
I've lost myself to a voice inside my head
In a world surrounded by love I'm still alone

I'm still alone