Widow Winslow - backwards Lyrics

Nostalgias a bitch, I'm tired
Disconnected and uninspired
I don't wanna think about it anymore
I chase the highs with the lows
But that's not why I go

Backwards into the ether
There's no goin' back to the way that things were
But I'll double back
Thinkin that
It's not over
Odds are stacked,
It's lookin' bad
Pray for closure

Wish that the rainfall
Would wash it all away
I keep on shaking the 8 ball
I'm in my very doubtful days
And I don't wanna think about it anymore
Catch a glimpse of what home was
It shouldn't control us

But I miss the sofa bed
And the memories we had
Oh, I wish I could go back
And just live for awhile

Backwards into the ether
There's no goin' back to the way that things were